Good morning / afternoon / evening to you @TheTravelWitch,
Nope, it’s not really Hotel and Restaurant services I am truly after in a career the actual one I would pick is that of a CareGiver. I want to ensure that at the very least no other child will ever have to go through the same amount of abuse I went through in my adolescent years. I actually nearly attempted suicide once because of it but a close friend from one of my old schools managed to stop my attempt in time so I owe that person a huge debt for it if he hadn’t acted in time my life in the mortal would have ended there.
Because there is a role in CareGiving that includes the handling of food and taking care of either the elderly or those severely mistreated I took up Hotel and Restaurant Services with the intent to use what I know firsthand in the treatment of different forms of trauma inflicted on a person. Other than that learning different sort of languages was something I’ve been drawn to even after the pain I’ve gone through for years. I guess he had death coming for him anyway as some sort of karmic retribution. I don’t recall how many times I asked or pleaded that very person to stop beating my own back all I knew was that it was very painful at that time and later on in the next several years I would find out just how much internal skeletal damage was inflicted at my own back.
I now know why I chose to come back to a house wherein several people would choose to harm me for their entertainment, for the sake of my youngest sibling at that time when he was just 7 - 9 years old it was all to safeguard him even if the cost is the physical and mental scars those people would leave at me for life. I understand that I was terrified about my own mortality because chances were I wouldn’t have even survive before I even reached my pre teens years, I couldn’t even tell my parents the entire situation due to threats thrown my way and words that keep stating they’ll never believe me just from the eyes of those very abusers. It may have been the power of a divine intervention that saved my life at that time or it could have just been my ex fiance’s righteous anger for witnessing everything they’ve done to me because once the first abuser died the other two ended up leaving me alone but not before they ensured I was in shatterred pieces that even now takes loads of time to mend.
I don’t know if it will ever be fixed at all. The only thing I’m sure of is that I would love to spend my future with my current lover at Africa itself and I was probably born to be a spiritual healer due to my past experiences while also learning different languages or potential medical treatments like Acupressure and Reiki at the same time. Its a path my mother doesn’t want me to take but it seems that appears to be my own calling in life regardless of whether she’ll like it or not.
I was placed under Bachelor of Science in Tourism Management but I couldn’t handle it for the next three years to come since the problem in my back is already noticeable and attracts peoples attention which is the last thing I’d ever want in the present. Half of my former classmates there meant well and attempted to end my fears in the Tourism sector but so far it hasn’t worked yet so it’ll probably take more time for me to heal the pain and scar out of my system. One of the Major subject professors probably thought I was arrogant or too confident since he saw I was actually studying the Japanese language on my own without any instructor teaching me at all which was a subject for 3rd years and above only in written form that involves Kanji in it.
Merry meet, merry greet & merry part,