Can't Sleep

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Hey Lovelies

I’ve had a really busy and productive day, and I was feeling great about it, until about 3 hours ago. I was laying here trying to go to sleep, and all of a sudden I felt sad and lonely…no clue why.

I picked up my phone to browse somewhere (it usually sends me to sleep) and as I was trying to decide what to do, someone rubbed the back of my left hand. As you do, I instinctively looked but there was nothing there, and I’m still confused except I know what I felt.

I thought maybe one of the Gs was trying to comfort me, so I said thanks and asked if they would like to show themselves. I closed my eyes because that’s usually where I see them first, I put on meditation music too, but all I saw was the inside of my eyelids.

So now it’s ten to 2 in the morning, K will be up in about 5 hours, and I just don’t know what’s going on, I feel a little weird. I don’t even know why I’m posting this here because it probably doesn’t make any sense… I guess I just wanted to get it out of my brain, maybe now I’ll be able to sleep. I hope so.

x Blessed Be x

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Sending you healing sleep. I also had insomnia last night. Sometimes the new moon like thr full moon keeps me up…

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Ah the perks of being a witch :blush:… I get insomnia too and i tend to read. It does help otherwise the alternative is to lay there and think about all the negatives in life and we all know how that goes :woman_facepalming:. Reading tends to burn my tired eye lids until a point i fall asleep. The meditation music is also a good idea.
Also we are all here hun of you need us and don’t think for a second that you are alone with the loneliness feeling. I have 4 kids and a hubby and i feel alone most of the time as no one gets me and i am left to tend to everything and i mean everything (asides from us cooking together) by myself.
May you sleep well in the future and dream of beautiful things x

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I have intermittent bouts with sleeplessness. As a meditator, my goto is deep meditation before bed. I try to relax as much as possible. It doesn’t always work but it works often enough to keep going to it.

Melatonin is a safe relaxant if you want to go that way.

As far as your contact with something… I never thought it would happen to me but it did. Deep meditation… almost asleep… and something brushed across the bottom of my foot. I nearly wet myself. Now I kinda want it to happen again. Is there a masochist emoji? :rofl:

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Your little lovely is still in primary is that right? So I’m guessing the ASD diagnosis is still fresh? I’m coming from a mum of an ASD child here. For the first must be 5-8 years I would be hit by a sudden emotional outburst of extreme sadness, then guilt then I would cry. I remember feeling absolutely fine, getting in my car to go to Tesco then having to pull over cuz I was crying violently and couldn’t stop. This is normal. You are under a stress level that is crazy high, as time goes by you learn to live normally under that stress level, but it takes years. Sorry but it does. Don’t fight it. Your body is an emotional organ too, and it needs to process the new world you live in. It does get better but insomnia, strange feelings of sadness, overwhelming thoughts of the future, they all hit at random as your body’s emotional side doesn’t process things in any order. You can talk to a councillor and get CBT, it didn’t help me, what helped was joining a group local of other ASD mums that totally understand. The NAS website I gave you, should be able to link you up with a group near you. Carers UK and Parent Carers are also great. Register with your GP as a carer and they can help you link up too (this is if you haven’t already done this, you may be well ahead of me). Noone told me about any of this I had to figure it out alone, it was hell, and that’s why I’m sharing now with you lovely.

Bless :green_heart:

https://www.bristolparentcarers.org.uk/
(They probably have a local one to you)

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Thank you @celineelise @dan3 @TheMuslimWitch @tracyS for replying, it’s so comforting to know I’m not alone!

That didn’t occur to me actually…I was so energised yesterday, maybe I absorbed too much new moon energy!

Yes indeed, we all know how that goes! And honestly, I have no clue how you manage 4 kids and a husband (or 5 kids if that’s the case lol), it’s just K and I and I know I’m struggling…but that’s what we do, right? Sending {{{hugs}}} your way too!

Funnily enough, I don’t usually get a chance to meditate before bed, as by the time I’ve put K to sleep I’m usually struggling to stay awake. I havent had insomnia for a while, and I think it was just disconcerting.

Yesssss, I had the same feeling! I wanted it to happen again, if nothing else just to prove to myself that I didn’t imagine it…but I too, almost wet myself hahaha!

Yes, yes and yes! I think it was so weird because I was so happy yesterday, really proud of myself for crossing all 10 things off of my to-do list…usually I only cross off 2 or 3, which meant that my Done list was nice and long for a change! But yes, as an empath my body is usually flowing with mine and other’s emotions, and maybe it just needed to release.

You know me so well haha! K is still at nursery, I kept her there for an extra year because she made great progress there. But I have registered, and dabbled in a few groups, unfortunately I havent had the best experience with them but that’s okay, I’ve got you! :blush: I don’t really do counselling… as I am one, I know exactly what I should be doing, and exactly what I would say to a client - yes, counsellors are the worst for following their own advice. I do have a few colleagues I could reach out to, but I can’t take the space of someone who really needs it, it’s not my way. Lots of hugs, love and sparkles xxxxx

x Blessed Be x

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I know I’m super late to this, but I hope you were able to go back to sleep :heart:

It’s always weird when things like that happen - could be a spirit, a God, our own subconscious mind, etc. I think if it brought you comfort then it’s likely a good thing :pray:

Also - the bonus of being in an international forum is that there are people here from all over the world. You might be awake in the middle of the night while someone is just getting their day started – there’s always someone here to chat!

Oh, yes this is also true and something to consider! You’re dealing with your child’s school, too. Stress makes the body do weird things, and if you haven’t been able to process what’s going on for one reason or another, the body and mind will try to do that when it has nothing else to do such as when you’re trying to sleep.

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Hey sweetie, actually I dropped off about a minute after posting lol, and K slept in an hour thank the Gods lol!

Exactly…I don’t think it was a coincidence that at the moment I was feeling lonely, I felt the presence.

Just one of the things I love about this place!

I think you’re right too… the school sitch is super stressful, I need to finish the absorb ord to get rid of it!

x Blessed Be x

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Just now getting around to the forum today. I haven’t slept more than 45 minutes straight the past 5 nights so I can sympathize with the stress that sleeplessness can bring :people_hugging:

I will say that when you are in that liminal place between sleep and being wide awake, I think you are more open to spirits and visitors. I have seen my soul cat (who passed 2 years ago this month) on more than a few nights as I made a trip to the bathroom or felt a cat join me in bed, but there isn’t anyone there.

Perhaps they know when we need a bit of comfort and that’s an easy time time for them to do it. :pink_heart:

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Oooo, that’s interesting, I’ll keep that in mind, thanks @Artemisia!

Now that, is awesome. I’m sorry for your physical loss, but the fact your cat visits you is so cool, it gives me hope that maybe I’ll see mine one day!

I know exactly what you mean! I feel like lately, I log on, and I start liking or replying and then bam - K wants food, or changing, or to fly…ah the joys of parenthood lol!

x Blessed Be x

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Sleep deprivation when you aren’t actually trying to do it really sucks. I hope your body finally lets you relax.

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Thank you, I finally got about 5 days of more continuous sleep this week. Still not restorative but it’s a move in the right direction! :folded_hands:

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