I’m an artist and completely new to this forum (purchased this morning), completely new to finally accepting this is what I want. I’ve dreamed of it since I was a kid, but there were negative associations from my mom (she believed she has strong abilities but she seems to take them to a bad place - she believes she is responsible for breaking a guy’s legs and for another recent incident for a persons broken foot), she knows her great grandmother had abilities. She’s scared of it…Anyway, I understand the rules so I’m not afraid of hurting someone and I don’t get angry like that, at least not anymore.
I setup my first altar today and blessed it. And cast my first spell this morning (which the lights flickered and now the internet is out - which is neat and giving me time to focus my thoughts after, but also gave me -hmmmmm - moment… ).
Anyway, for years I’ve thought of myself as an art witch because when I paint I think about the subject over and over again and I believe that when I paint a pet I infuse his/her personality into the painting. (I always ask the person who is commissioning me the pets name and about their personality - I think it helps)… here is my pet portrait gallery (I also teach online oil painting and have a community forum for Positive Painters - I created the community this year because I see how damaged the art world is and how people seem to just push others down - my community builds and promotes the goal oriented artist) stephanieweaverartist.com/pet-portrait-gallery
Anyway, I feel like I need some sort of structure but at the same time when I read some of these spells they feel too structured…so I kind of making them my own. I wrote down the spell this morning and starting a book of shadows in my own way. I feel like I’m not conforming to the way everyone does things…I don’t like the color black - never have - even in painting I create my own black (ultramarine blue, Alizarin Crimson and Sap Green - deep, rich, transparent colors)…so I made my own Pentagram cloth (I sewed it using some pretty, sparkly fabric and used silver metallic glitter fabric paint (yep - glitter makes everything awesome) , my book of shadows and book of mirrors is actually a Happy Planner that I’ve modified…wand is a paint brush (it’s no longer a good brush, but one that I have a tendency to fiddle with when I need to focus), athame is an exacto knife, I’ve ordered colored candles, but using white until then, and the little cups are actually salt cellars that I’ve had for years and a dog bowl for a cauldron (it’s what I had and I believe it will lead to a long term business goal and life’s purpose I have to prevent animal cruelty). My space is in my art studio, in a private corner that has floor drapes around it. Everyone in the family knows to leave me alone when the doors are closed so I have privacy and quiet time. I don’t like being disrupted - I concentrate pretty hard on painting and computer work - so they know I can get snappy when interrupted - not my best trait
It’s strange - I have no clue what I’m doing but it feels right…what I don’t know is what I don’t know…!
Anyway, that’s me in a nutshell :). I look forward to learning and taking as much in as I can!