So, I went home to my family’s this weekend and had a friend watch my cat & kitten. I’ve explained before that I’m in recovery from addiction. So are a lot of my friends. When I got home last night, I found my friend dead on my couch. He had overdosed. And even though I carry narcan, too much time had already passed. So it was a pretty traumatic experience to say the least. We met in recovery, he had been about 4-5 months sober. My best friend and her 9 year old were with me, but I realised what was wrong before her daughter walked in. Last night was a whirlwind of police interviews, explaining what happened & trying to hold myself together. I didnt stay at my apartment last night, and I thought I would want to get rid of my couch. But I did go there earlier to do cat litter & take a shower, and it was less uncomfortable than I had imagined.
Does anyone have any advice? I’ve dealt with a lot of deaths, I know how to process that. But not in my house, not seeing and touching him. Are there any spells or rituals anyone does or knows of that may make me feel less unsettled? Thanks in advance.