You’ve got a lot of good recommendations and lots of love and support here, @christina4 ! I’m sending you my warm wishes and good thoughts as well
It is absolutely okay if you aren’t ready to talk about it yet, but maybe listening to some other stories will help you to feel supported? Sometimes knowing you aren’t alone in your struggle can help you feel more secure. @SilverBear started a great (and deep) discussion about mental health in magickal practice. You can read through her inspirational story and input from others in this post:
@MeganB also talks a lot about mental health, and has this great post on having an anxious brain. The post is about the pandemic, but I found a lot of her advice to be great in general. Her post is here:
I hope you can find some light and happiness again soon. Sending good energy and big hugs your way!!!