Hi All -
I am seeking clarity and insight on which direction I should take regarding my career situation.
I was off work for a few months last year due to mental health (and me actually listening to my body and mind and taking the time I needed
thank you Self!!!), then was laid off as I was returning to work. I was kind of bummed about it, I really liked the company I was working for and got to work with people all over the world. But we had been acquired by a larger company and we knew there was a strong possibility that not all of us would continue on with them. Thatās business. And, as usual, it ended up being a blessing in disguise, as most of those who did continue on with the new company have not been happy in their new roles and the volume of work.
I started looking for another job pretty much right away at that point, since it had been like 3 months since I had worked. I did a little magick and amazing job offers were pouring in, quite literally overwhelming me to the point I was returning to an unhealthy anxious state. So against my practical (maybe mundane is a better word here) sense saying āyou have to work every day, what are you doing?! go get a job!,ā I listened to my intuition and continued to rest until it felt right. Thank goodness for savings accounts!
In January, an opportunity came to me that seemed/seems to fit pretty well with me. I have have been doing the books for a home builder three days a week (job advertised/promoted as 2-3 days per week and hybrid). Itās a small office, thereās like 4 of us, and Iām the oldest one! LMAO, that was a first for me! They hired me because they said the former accountant was not able to give them that much time, as he had other clients he worked for as well.
So I dive in, pick up everything pretty well I feel. Itās only been two months and I have cleaned EVERY thing up that needed to be, reconciled every project to the penny, and got them all caught up on paying their vendors. Mind you, all while going into the office for 3 days each week, and putting in well over 10 hour days⦠on salary. But I was happy to do it to get them to a good place, which only makes it better for me as well.
Last week and the week before that, I had a bit of a backslide with the anxiety. I stay pretty private and surface level at work and told them I had some health issues that needed to be dealt with and that I needed to work from home last week and the week before. I wasnāt always able to be āon the clockā for a structured 8-5 kind of schedule, but kept in consistent contact with them about what I was getting done, when I was working, etc. And they could see that, because what I work on goes directly to the owner so he sees Iām working and that things are now all clean.
At the end of last week, he said that he did not feel like it should be taking me this long to get the stuff done, even after telling him a few times (me proactively going to him and saying āhey I know this is taking a little bit but Iām getting this and this and this done and cleanā).
Now I see why the previous accountant didnāt do things so cleanly. He was probably told the same. If you only want to pay for 2-3 days a week, thatās how much work youāre going to get.
So he decided to see how it goes if his tax accountant does the next few weeks of financials. Of course itās going to go much faster, I just cleaned everything up⦠and while I was struggling. I was pretty proud of myself to be quite honest. And it (not sure the word Iām looking for here, but close toā¦) offended/hurt me that he wanted to see if it could be done faster after I just put in all the work. He said they are happy to have me return in a week or two, given the outcome.
Like I said, of course itās going to go much smoother for this guy because I got it all together for him, and he doesnāt know what it was like before so he canāt even vouch for me regarding the time I put in. I tried to explain this but Iām not sure he really āheardā me. Although I do feel they will probably ask me back.
What I am struggling to feel clarity on is if they do ask me to return, should I? Is this the right position for me? The days/hours/hybrid situation (and even the people, still) are great for me, granted they stick to that. Or should I thank them for their time and move on? I still have opportunities flowing in so Iām not worried about that. I just want to be happy.
Sorry for the long post. Any insight or suggestions for meditations, divinations, etc are greatly appreciated. Iām just not feeling Iāve gotten a direction on it yet. Thank you!