Greetings, @Deborah813!
So sorry to hear you’ve been troubled and weighed down with worries lately. Planning and hoping can help get you to where you want to be, but I know it can be surprisingly quick for hope to spiral into worry and become tangled in a web of anxiety 
It is good to hear you are sticking with your meditations- I hope they bring you positivity and clear thoughts! 
It sounds like you have determination in your heart and are moving towards the goal you want to achieve- I hope you are able to move soon! 
You may be interested in this Spell to get a New House.
I think you’re on the right path with reading books that help you move forward (rather than become stuck in darker habits like pursuing revenge- that book sounds yikes! 
) Feel free to check out Book Club for recommendations and reviews of books as well! 
Lots of love and light to you- Be well, Deborah! 