Merry meet @MorganFay and welcome! 
I’m sorry for the tough times and the recent loss of your father 
But despite the hardships you’ve overcome, it sounds like you have been exploring and embracing a number of wonderful talents- congrats to you! 
Please make yourself at home here and know that all the resources of both the main Spells8 site as well as here in the forum are at your fingertips. I recommend using the Search Tool and Tag System to help you navigate around- they are a lifeline! 
Looking forward to talking with you more soon- Blessed be! 