I’m excited about putting together my alter. It’s been fun getting stuff.
Yesterday I had to put my mom in hospice care. My emotions are in turmoil and I need the focus and positivity that my alter will bring to me.
How do I do that when I’m all over the place?
Meditation is the only thing I see.
Thank you… I will spend more time and try focusing harder. 
Sometimes all you can do is go with the flow of your emotions. When my relatives put my mother in a nursing home, I turned to journaling. I wrote out 75 issues to face and heal before I went to see her. It was very healing for me, though it showed me those 75 issues were not all I had to deal with. It was a hard time for me, and I figure you’re having a hard time, too.
Hang in there Anita. You can get through this. Trouble faced now reveals healing, soon. It feels like it will last forever when we are in the middle of it, but it will pass. You can make it. I believe in you.
I feel for you I had to put my mom also in that I call hospis a nick name . But stay positive much you can always make happy memories with her and build your alter to your and your mom’s engery and make cast healing spells with it , light up a nice smelling incense any kind and a green and white candle and as you cast a healing spell picture a happy memory as if she was fully healed
Thank you to everybody for insights and support.