Good evening, all! It has been far too long since I was last here for a visit. Sadly, I have just been buried in life! That being said, I am here in the hopes that one…or more…of you lovelies may be able to offer some knowledge and, potentially, advice if you are so inclined!
As the title may suggest, to start, I am wondering if there are multiple types or versions of Magick or Magickal workings with regard to being/becoming or causing one to feel or be “tongue tied.”
This naturally begs a few questions from me, I can imagine! Context…
Over the last, I would say 2-ish weeks, I have been having some…issues. At first, I thought I knew what it was. But now I wonder. I recently switched a couple of medications around for my mental health at a new doctor’s suggestion. I was having some cognitive functioning issues. I say some, but in reality, it was more like…all!
To illustrate:
Remembering: I started having little issues with recalling information, conversations, things I was working on or information I had recently looked up. Honestly, it took me a while just to write this post because I was trying to remember all of the different things that have been happening! it’s been kind of alarming!
Decision-making - I started second-guessing everything. Yesterday, I literally walked in and out of my apartment 6 times. Walking back and forth to my car and back, deciding if I should go to the store or just order it delivered. No joke.
Attention - Imagine being locked in a room with a “maker” who also happens to be a hoarder with ADHD, and you’re there, trying to keep the room clean. Only you have ADHD, too! “Oh, that’s cool…wait, what was I doing, and…where does this one go?” Pretty soon, I’ll be sleeping on half-completed projects, tools, and all my dishes, wondering where the laundry went!
Perception - I started having trouble…seeing…things for what they were essentially. My understanding of things has been…fuzzy…I would say.
Language - I started having trouble forming not just the more…frivolous…language I am often prone to, but everyday words. The language we all use day in and day out. I’m either having trouble finding the words, or I have trouble getting the words to come out properly. I stumble, stutter, or jumble them.
Problem-solving - Figuring out how to troubleshoot and solve problems…don’t even get me started!
Learning & Thinking - this one is twofold! My reasoning and processing of information, ability to acquire knowledge, and understanding through thought and senses have all been…off. I had…have…a paper that was due two weeks ago that I just cannot get done. First, I got it over halfway done and felt stuck on where the paper needed to go next, so I checked the instructions and Rubrick again to see why I felt stuck. I had done the entire paper completely wrong. A total redo, nothing salvageable! Since then, things keep happening, I have had to restart the paper to some degree at least 3 additional times due to different accidental loss of information scenarios! For instance, the last time, I lost half the paper! I had the document open in an application I use for editing that USUALLY auto-saves. My computer did an auto-update overnight while I was sleeping. Closed all the browsers and restarted the computer. I opened the app, and everything I had done that night was gone! I contacted the service to see if they could access the document edit history…nope! Other issues have come up, too. But, coupled with the focus, language, recall, and problem-solving issues…?
Then the non-cognitive…I keep biting my tongue and lip! No joke, I’ve bitten both so hard I was bleeding. I can’t chew or talk. There is a little chunk missing on the one side! It really hurts!
Individually, I would likely come to some non-magick conclusion! But all together…suspect!
I don’t know why someone would. I barely speak with people these days! I don’t leave my apartment most of the time unless it’s wholly necessary! I have no family to speak of, only a handful of friends, most of which I don’t speak to all that often! I haven’t had any altercations or strange interactions with anyone. I just…don’t know!
So, I guess, long story short…anyone have any thoughts?! lol
Thanks in advance!
~A
***Well, It turns out the reason I couldn’t post this elsewhere is because my subscription has lapsed…ooops! I just wanted to update, since you were all so kind to answer!
@Mystique It actually is Duloxetine that I was put on!! She mentioned several side affects, but not this! I am so glad I was detailed and that it resonated with you enough to mention that medication by name! I will absolutely be making an appointment with my Dr! I am glad to hear that these symptoms cleared up for you over time. I just would have been nice to know this was something to look out for or at the very least be aware of!! Thank you for the response.
Thank you to everyone else who suggested the same.
@georgia I know what you mean. I frequently get look or vibes when i sometimes forget to not, take it down a notch, around others!! Or, around people who don’t know me at least!
You all are wonderful! Thank you so much.
~A