You’re very welcome and thank you for your thank you. I am happy that you found something in that and I would be honoured to walk down this path of healing with you. Please know that thanks to the AMAZING people here you will never be alone in your journey unless you want to be. There are so many here who have experienced the pain and torment and are living, breathing proof that it is ok on the other side.
Healing is hard, supporting toxic people is harder. It just seems like healing is the hardest thing you can do as for once you are forced to look after yourself and when you have spent nearly half your life making another your number one priority, you literally have to re-learn your whole life.
I really mean it though when I say I don’t know what I would have done if it wasn’t for this amazing coven and the truly wonderful people in it.
@jessica72 ok first off we are lucky to have you. Your entry was amazing and I am extremely proud of you. You put yourself out there and are willing to do the work to be and feel better. You have had so much progress since you have joined. I hope you are as proud of you as we all are. And last of all, no part of you is broken. You are sad and scared, a little bent from the storm but not broken. You are stronger than you realize. And if you forget call me and I will remind you lol.
“Karma comes after everyone eventually. You can’t get away with screwing people over your whole life, I don’t care who you are. What goes around comes around. That’s how it works. Sooner or later the universe will serve you the revenge that you deserve.”- Jessica Brody
Absolutely stunning, @jessica72! The beautiful prayer you wrote, the amethyst spell, your deep reflection- I am so amazed and so impressed by your work here. Words aren’t enough to describe it- you did such a wonderful job!
It sounds like this challenge theme resonated strongly with you, so glad to hear it! Though I can’t take the credit for the theme idea- I think you and @RyuWyn are sharing one heart and mind to both be thinking of forgiveness magick at the same time
Numerology isn’t really my cup of tea, but 3 is a powerful number in multiple religions/spiritual paths (think: Holy Trinity, Rule of Three, Three Realms, etc.) and it looks like Plentiful Earth has an interesting article about 333 Numerology you could check out!
So many moments in this piece made me smile, but this made me outright laugh- what do you mean you don’t have a way with words, Jessica!?! Your writing is overflowing with emotions and is so powerful to read. It takes lot of talent to bring out such emotion and empathy in your readers- I think you have a real talent for writing and I feel blessed to be able to read this heartfelt masterpiece!
@christine13 - Thank you. I’m glad you liked it. I do admit it really is my favorite part too.
@SilverBear - Thank you. And thank you so much for sharing the A little Forgiveness Ritual This incredible forum always seems to have the way of having the exact thing that you need pop up at exactly the right time.
@BryWisteria - Thank you so much for being so proud of me and your always kind words of encouragement. Ooooo yes please I’ll defiantly check that link out. Thank you.
Aw that is such a lovely thing to say. Thank you for that, that really made me smile. I’ve always thought of myself as an odd little black duck as I really do have my very own unique vocabulary. But I am one very lucky little ducky to be welcomed and appreciated here. I do have to admit it even now does still take a little getting used too, just being accepted for who I am.
For a very long time I had it in very much stuck in my head that Mitch treated me the way he did because I was a little different. I wasn’t “normal”. But being a part of this group with every single one of these amazing people has opened my eyes (sometimes in a very big way and sometimes in lots of little ways) to a lot of things that he had me believing that just simply aren’t true. It’s like I literally am re-learning ‘me’ again. Now that I have taken that big huge step away from him I am starting to realize just how twisted things were. And I owe a lot of that to the support, love, patience and guidance from my angels here.
@Amethyst - Thank you. You know you really inspire me with all the incredible writing that you do!
@RyuWyn - Thank you for being proud of me. And thank you for the challenge idea. I honestly did pray to the universe the night before I saw the challenge pop up in the forum asking for guidance as to what I needed to do because I’m not gonna lie things weren’t great I was having so many moments of weakness and self-doubt where my thoughts were getting so dark and twisted. And boom! There was this challenge waiting for me to see. I can’t ignore a message smack straight between the eyes like that one. So thank you. You really have helped in ways that you can’t even imagine.
I think we are all very lucky to know this “little ducky”- you are a blessing here, Jessica!
And maybe it’s cliche to say, but being “normal” really is overrated - there is so much to celebrate in being our wonderfully weird, uniquely awesome selves!
That being said, it can’t be sugarcoated- it is a long and hard journey to “re-learn” what we’ve been taught about fitting in and matching mainstream expectations. But I think it’s one of those things where the harder the challenge, the greater the rewards There’s nothing better than finding inner love and acceptance for yourself. Tough to do in any way, but finding a group that welcomes you for who are certainly makes it easier (and less lonely!) of a journey!
So cheers to you for how far you’ve come, and know that your Infinite Roots coven is cheering you on for the road ahead!
I promise every day I’m trying to kick him just that little bit closer to the curb. May only be a tiny nudge at a time but he’ll be completely out of my head one day.
Ow you are so strong and you have so much courage writing out your guts out! I Applaud you for doing your part! I know your starting to love yourself again and peeling the onion
I can tell how much you are growing!
Blessed be❤️
Within the first 10 pages I found a paragraph that shook me to my absolute core. I couldn’t have described my relationship with Mitch any more accurately…
For all those years that he was a part of my life there was this little voice in the back of my head that would be telling me that he only wanted me for what he enjoyed from me physically and my money.
I think that maybe there’s something more to him than simple narcissism. I think that I am lucky to have survived for the 15 years that I did and even escape when I did. This single paragraph is us 100% without any question.
This one paragraph helps me to understand why he dropped me as easily as he had, he had someone else already. He only kept me because he got things out of me that he enjoyed. Me as a person meant nothing to him. My loyalty, support and devotion for 15 years meant nothing. It didn’t bother him when I ended our 15 year relationship. It was just an inconvenience for him because his game was over. Because I told him no more support with money (even though it was up to me whether or not I chose to keep giving him money and he was going to struggle as his work were doing pay cuts) - his exact words to me. That’s the only thing that bothered him.
But I was so deeply in love with him. I mean to the point where I loved him more than I loved myself. He was my number one priority in almost all aspects of my life. I believed that there was something not right with me. Being an empath I was literally his perfect prey. He was my first and only love. I have never known anything different than how he chose to treat me. I am lucky to be free.
This book has so much information on emotional caretakers and empaths. I have so much that resonates with me, how I am and the role I played in our relationship in the little bit that I have read. I think this one may be best early Christmas present to myself this year.
The beautiful prayer you wrote, the amethyst spell, your deep reflection- I am so amazed and so impressed by your work here. Words aren’t enough to describe it- you did such a wonderful job! 
Though I can’t take the credit for the theme idea- I think you and 
There’s nothing better than finding inner love and acceptance for yourself. Tough to do in any way, but finding a group that welcomes you for who are certainly makes it easier (and less lonely!) of a journey! 
