I don’t doubt you, or Her, but I have not experienced Her this way. I respect her, but I do not fear her. So far, She has been a wise and patient teacher, who has shown no signs of displeasure with my efforts. She requires effort, and a willingness to to look into your shadow and own it. That seems a fair deal to me - She’s a goddess, not Santa Claus. She has recently taught me to see Her as a Goddess of Light as much as a Goddess of Darkness.
Anyway, I didn’t intend to preach, I just wanted to share my experience.