Merry meet @amelita 
Welcome to the forum and, most importantly- welcome home! 
It sounds like you have been carrying magick in your heart the whole time. Congrats to you for looking inwards and making the decision to being your formal journey into magick, it is very exciting and we are blessed to have you here! 
You have a lot of passion and enthusiasm- that is awesome! I’m glad you’ve been enjoying the courses so far, have you also come across the Weekly Challenges here in the forum? There is a new one posted in the Activities Category every Wednesday- every week we explore a new area of magick. This week is all about Teas & Infusions- feel free to check it out and join in if it calls to you!
Looking forward to talking with you more soon- Blessed be, Amelita! 