House cleaning ritual fail

[markzen304]

A Brutal Weekend, Hard Truths & Laying Low This Week

Merry Meet everyone,

I’m not going to sugarcoat it—this past weekend was an absolute trial.

Between long-term sleep deprivation, constant stress, and running myself completely ragged, my body crashed hard with a fever, intense headache, and severe exhaustion (tested negative for flu/COVID, just pure physical burnout). On top of that:

• Got the call that I lost my hospice client, and I’m already transitioning to two new clients.
• My dad had a terrible fall on Saturday and broke both his shoulder and elbow.
• Tension at home boiled over, and my wife and I were at each other’s throats all weekend.

Even through the chaos, I am keeping my anchors close: I’m still wearing my iron key around my neck, keeping my Lepidolite in my pocket for calm, and carrying my daily crystals to give me whatever extra protection and steady energy I can get.

My reading for the week gave me the exact medicine I need right now: lay low, don’t rock the boat, and move with the room. No big moves, no overthinking, and no pushing myself past empty. My only goal this week is to put my head down, glide through shift by shift, nurse my body back to health, and just breathe through the storms I can’t control.

I didn’t get many pictures because I spent most of the weekend feeling completely drained, but I managed to snap a couple when I stepped outside to get some fresh air.

Wishing you all a far gentler week than my weekend was. Taking it one quiet breath at a time.

Blessed Be. And of course I needed the help of Gemini, but my thoughts, my words.

[katharina]

@markzen304

this past weekend was an absolute trial.

I´m so sorry you´re having a rough time! You seem to have very good skills to get through this, but just in case you wanted to join the energy exchange circle I´m putting the link here:
https://forum.spells8.com/t/energy-exchange-circle-september-2026/68482/4

But can I ask what makes you feel that your house cleansing failed?

[markzen304]

You can just feel negative energy in the house . My wife flipped out when finding the things I was to leave in the window and doors . So I’m just at a crossroads in my life . And I am the only one who can fix it . So that’s the path I am on now .

[Amethyst]

@markzen304

I’m not going to sugarcoat it—this past weekend was an absolute trial.

I’m so sorry your weekend was cruddy. That’s awful! Maybe it’s like the Tower card in Tarot? Destruction to make way for something new?

Anyways, I hope this week goes better for you! New week, new start! Good luck!

[Moonbeam]

@markzen304

Reading your post I can feel your pain in each word. Caring for someone who you have got to know and looked after is very hard even though you try to shield yourself it still gets through. You supported that person and their family at their time of need and I hope you can take some comfort in that.

Sending blessings for your Dad it is a shock when they have a fall. I hope that his recovery is swift.

With all what has happened I am sorry to also read of your difficulties at home.

May be take sometime just to relax so you can recover after your illness as it will have know doubt took it out of you. Relaxing and meditation is a good form of self-care.

Sending you Love, Light, and blessings

[markzen304]

@Amethyst

Anyways, I hope this week goes better for you! New week, new start! Good luck!

Couldn’t agree more what the equinox coming time to let go

[markzen304]

@Moonbeam

Reading your post I can feel your pain in each word. Caring for someone who you have got to know and looked after is very hard even though you try to shield yourself it still gets through. You supported that person and their family at their time of need and I hope you can take some comfort in that.

Sending blessings for your Dad it is a shock when they have a fall. I hope that his recovery is swift.

With all what has happened I am sorry to also read of your difficulties at home.

May be take sometime just to relax so you can recover after your illness as it will have know doubt took it out of you. Relaxing and meditation is a good form of self-care.

Sending you Love, Light, and blessings

Thank you , you always have the best advice and the most calm mind I’ve ever met. This form is the only thing keeping me sane . I don’t have a good relationship with my father , and to watch him with the push me out of his life and watch him fade away down to nothing right now is just awful . But like I said to @Amethyst I’m shifting my attention to the equinox and releasing what I can no longer control . One of the things I’ve written down and been trying to preach is one of your kind gestures when I first came out on the board . Thank you once again , and thank all of you . If anyone has any advice on how to reverse a curse , because I believe my family has been cursed . My dad always said that our last name was cursed , like he truly believed it , like he knew something mysterious .

[Water]

Just a thought, but sometimes dread, or the fear of what is to come can create the feeling of failure which you are feeling, but that is inside of you, and not always the reality. However, the feelings you have are literally the most important one’s so you can try this and see if it resonates with you.

Protective Salt Barrier:

1. Open all windows and doors
2. Sweep the floors clean and rhouroughly vacuum
3. Mop the floor inside with water and salt
4. If you can’t mop the floors, pour a ring of salt outside your home
5. Light a black candle and envision all negative energy leaving your body and your home.

“What moves in shadow not meant for me
What tongue whispers secretly
What eye watches with envy’s thread
Return now where it was first bred
By flame and salt
By dark and sight
I stand untouched
I claim my night
As I will it
So it stands
And as I will, so mote it be”

[Feathertip]

@markzen304

• Got the call that I lost my hospice client, and I’m already transitioning to two new clients.
• My dad had a terrible fall on Saturday and broke both his shoulder and elbow.
• Tension at home boiled over, and my wife and I were at each other’s throats all weekend.

That’s a whole lot of sadness and angst on top of you getting sick over the weekend. I’m so sorry about your client passing; even though that’s the point of hospice: helping folks with the transition, it still must leave a little hole. Too many holes might leave you feeling empty, so it’s good that you’re carrying your iron key and keeping your crystals close while you rest up.

I hope your Dad recovers quickly, and the protective salt barrier spell from @Water gives you some relief.

Remember your own self care while caring for everyone else! So mote it be.

[katharina]

@markzen304

My wife flipped out when finding the things I was to leave in the window and doors

Is your pagan path new to her? Just trying to understand the situation…for a partner it can be quite scary when rituals happen that they aren´t familiar with.

@markzen304

because I believe my family has been cursed

@markzen304

My dad always said that our last name was cursed , like he truly believed it

There´s ways with divination to get a clue about hexes or curses being sent your way.

Take two matches and a wide bowl of water. I always use a standard-sized muesli bowl. Let the bowl sit for a few minutes until the water is completely still.
Then place one match in the water, followed by the other match on the opposite side of the bowl. Say something like: “Please show me whether I have / we have been bewitched or cursed.”

After half an hour or an hour, observe whether and how the matches have moved. If they do not touch, there is no curse or hex upon you. If they are merely touching slightly at their red heads or ends, it is possible that someone attempted something, but your ancestors and spirit guides blocked it (this is, after all, one reason we practice ancestral work—to heal the family line; a healed family line serves as protection for you, too). If the matches are fully touching or even crossed, then you are dealing with a curse or hex.

Alternatively, of course, you can always consult your tarot cards or your Kau Chim sticks.

If I want to know if something is coming my way I´m shuffeling my deck and then flip through it looking for the devil card. The card before it tells me what´s coming, the card after it gives me a further clue as to how to deal with it.

And finally: if you´re worried about being cursed, lay that worry to Hekates feet. Feed the curse to Hekates dogs, they´ll devour this energy.
You can also rotate your pendulum and say: “I ask any all negative, hindering, blocking energies, all hexes, curses, jinxes, that have ever been laid on me, to leave me and go wherever they need to go to be absorbed and neutralised.” (working with the pendulum is always the quickest and easiest fix for me)

You can also burn reverse candles (the ones that are black on top and white or red on the bottom half). You can get them at spiritual stores or botanicas or just order them on Amazon. (Fun fact: witchcraft candles are not a thing here in Vienna, this is why I started making my own candles and it really is a fun and easy craft.)

I hope I could help a little. Sending you lots of good vibes, love and light!

[Greenbriar]

@markzen304

Between long-term sleep deprivation, constant stress, and running myself completely ragged, my body crashed hard with a fever, intense headache, and severe exhaustion (tested negative for flu/COVID, just pure physical burnout). On top of that:

• Got the call that I lost my hospice client, and I’m already transitioning to two new clients.
• My dad had a terrible fall on Saturday and broke both his shoulder and elbow.
• Tension at home boiled over, and my wife and I were at each other’s throats all weekend.

Oh I’m so sorry all this is happening at once. Please try and take care of yourself first. It’s harder to deal with everything else when you are ill yourself. I will add you to my healing list and your dad too. May things turn around, energy and peace return and love and light fill your life. Blessed be.

[moonstruck]

@markzen304

I was worried about you that you haven’t been on the forum, sorry to hear of about your struggles and pain, hope your dad gets better soon

Sending love and Kindness to you and your family

[BryWisteria]

That’s a lot of hardship all at once, I’m so sorry @markzen304 You’re very strong for staying optimistic and I’m sharing the same hope - the coming equinox is a time of equilibrium and balance. I hope it helps stabilize things and bring you the peace and stability you’re hoping for. So mote it be!

@markzen304

If anyone has any advice on how to reverse a curse , because I believe my family has been cursed .

Katarina kindly shared some great advice and magick to look into about family curses. I don’t know if it would be helpful or not, but there’s an article on the site about generational curses. You might find some additional advice there:

Unlocking Freedom: Prayers to Break Generational Curses

Wishing you only the best and keeping you in my thoughts. Many blessings!

[markzen304]

@BryWisteria

You’re very strong for staying optimistic and I’m sharing the same hope - the coming equinox is a time of equilibrium and balance. I hope it helps stabilize things and bring you the peace and stability you’re hoping for. So mote it be!

Thank You

[markzen304]

@BryWisteria

Katarina kindly shared some great advice and magick to look into about family curses. I don’t know if it would be helpful or not, but there’s an article on the site about generational curses. You might find some additional

@katharina Thank you so much for this. It is definitely something that has my attention right now, my full attention, and I will be reading and having Gemini help me comprehend when I’m reading on this article. Thank you so much for the share .

[markzen304]

@moonstruck

was worried about you that you haven’t been on the forum, sorry to hear of about your struggles and pain, hope your dad gets better soon

Sending love and Kindness to you and your family

You don’t know how much it means for you to say these kind words once again. This board has been such a blessing , and sometimes it’s the only time I get joy or a smile is reading everyone’s posts and advice and how everyone’s day is going So I can’t say it enough about this board & all of you . Blessed Be

[markzen304]

@BryWisteria

Katarina kindly shared some great advice and magick to look into about family curses. I don’t know if it would be helpful or not, but there’s an article on the site about generational curses. You might find some additional advice there:

This has my full attention today. Ty ty for sharing this information.@katharina

[markzen304]

@katharina

Is your pagan path new to her? Just trying to understand the situation…for a partner it can be quite scary when rituals happen that they aren´t familiar with.

No, it isn’t really new to her. When we got back together in2006 1st time, she always knew I walked to the beat of my own drum. I didn’t know the word “Pagan” back then—I only found that term when I found Spells8 a couple of years ago—but from day one, I was honest with her about believing in reincarnation, the stars, and the elements. Early on, she even bought me a telescope and astrology books.
My wife is a devoted Christian (Christian and Missionary Alliance). Things shifted when I started printing out candle correspondences from Spells8 and angel numbers. Suddenly, to her, it became “devil stuff.” Some days she tolerates it, and other days the friction is intense. She deals with her own heavy family trauma and takes mental health medication. Having worked as a psych tech in a hospital, I fully respect mental healthcare. But after she pushed me into therapy and meds that didn’t help, a separate traumatic event sent me searching inward—and that’s what ultimately led me home to this path.
I’ve reached a point where I realize I can’t force her to understand, and I’m done trying. For too long, I let my learning disability, my dad, my wife, and past relationships make me feel small and controlled. I’m taking my power back. I am the only one responsible for my happiness now.
Finding this community and receiving so much encouragement from all of you has been a life-changing blessing. Thank you for holding space for me while I find my footing.

[katharina]

@markzen304

Suddenly, to her, it became “devil stuff.”

Well, no one disputes the existence of Satanic witches, but let us not forget that Satan belongs to the Christian pantheon—not the pagan one. (I also find it remarkable that Christians are taught to fear witches rather than those who hunted, disenfranchised, dispossessed, and murdered them by the thousands.)

@markzen304

I am the only one responsible for my happiness now.

Yes, you are indeed! No one else can find happiness and a fulfilled life for you.

@markzen304

Finding this community…

I agree! This community is truly special and there´s many witches here with great knowledge and experience. I love it here, too. It´s my “virtual witches hut” where we can come together, sip some tea and share spells and rituals.