Hi. My name is Ashley I’m from Tennessee and i have been practicing for about 10 years maybe more, but i’m still learning. Its been slow for me because my grand witch(grandmother) passed when i was 13 and my mom didn’t inherit the gene, so i’ve had to learn on my own. My grandmother only had a chance to teach me a little of what i know. I’m a mom of 3, i have two girls they are twins and 1 son. They are all grown and one of my girls had Down Syndrome. On January 25th of this year my sweet girl passed away at 26 years old. It was unexpected and she went to fast. We all had gotten a virus, her and I and my boyfriend. Me and my and boyfriend were sick first and she went 4 days not being sick and we stayed away from her, but unfortunately she caught it. It gave us all respiratory pneumonia. Of course as a mom I took care of her like any other mom would. Got her fever broken and gave her meds. She got sick on a Tuesday and by Friday I thought we were all turning a corner. I really thought we were all getting better. She even ate her favorite meal that night. The next morning my boyfriend got up and couldnt find her so he woke me up and we found her in the floor on the other side of her bed. I called the ambulance and i had about 15 mins with her alert and she was comforting me. I just thought that she would be in the hospital for a while and be ok. but as soon as they shut the ambulance doors she coded in our driveway. By the time i got to the hospital they had a very weak heartbeat and it was only from all the adrenalin they used on her. They made sure she had a heartbeat for me to be able to say goodbye. Im shattered. My grief is overcoming me and i cant think straight. I need to find a spell to relieve some of this heavy grief. I’m also trying to find myself again. So i decided to throw myself into my witchcraft studies. If anyone has any recommendations for me, a potion, a ritual… at this point anything to help with the roller coaster of emotions im going through. Sorry for the long post.
Hello, @ashley79. I’m Amethyst from Southern West Virginia. Let me welcome you to the forum.
I am deeply sorry for your loss. I don’t have children so I can’t even imagine what you’re going through, but I do feel for you and wish I could make it better.
I’m glad you’ve joined us here. We are a great community of witches who will lift you up when you need it and celebrate with you when something great happens. So if you need to talk or something, let us know and we’ll be there for you.
I do have two spells to recommend to you, that might help you find comfort. I hope they help, even if it’s just a little bit.
Sending you much love!
I’m so sorry for your loss, utterly heartbreaking. Im new to all this but if i can help send healing energy i will xxx
Sending love your way. I can’t begin to imagine what you feel. Welcome here, you are home now. I’m Tracy from England. 
I’m so sorry for your loss. I’m Jayne in Texas. I’m very glad you found us, this is a very supportive community. As has been pointed out, there are some spells here that may offer some solace.
Sending love and healing energies
Blessed Be
Welcome @ashley79 
I am so very sorry to hear about your loss and can not begin even to imagine how devastating this must be for you.
The lovely @Amethyst suggested two good spells to try. I did some digging in the forum for other suggestions for you.
Sending you strenth, light and peace.
Hello and welcome @ashley79 Im sorry for loss I’m Amanda from Oklahoma We’re so glad you have joined us
Welcome @ashley79! I’m sorry for your loss. I’m Georgia, in New Mexico.
I hope you and your boyfriend have healed well from your illnesses. I’m going through it now, so I understand the feelings of weakness and the frustration of not being able to keep it from loved ones.
Sending positive thoughts.
Losing a loved one is so hard. Several people have recommended things you can do. Keep trying and I so hope things get brighter.
I can not imagine what you’ve gone through. I am so very sorry for your loss. Always here with a listening ear if needed. 
This coven has been tremendous so far, and I hope you find what you are looking for.
Welcome to our lovely coven @ashley79 I’m from Minnesota and have been practicing many different aspects of the craft for 35+ years. I currently work with chaos magick, voodoo and divination.
I’m so sorry for your loss. Losing a child is the hardest thing in the world. I lost my son (he was 21) ten years ago and I still have very difficult times. Looks like you got some good spell advice to help you. Some things that have helped me is I have made an altar to honor my son. I use it to speak to him, to let him know I miss him everyday and love him always. When he first passed, I needed therapy to get me through it. If you decide to go that route, be sure to find a therapist that specializes in grief counseling.
Sending love, light and healing energy to you and your family. I’m always here for you if you need to talk.
Blessings
Hello 
and Welcome 
@ashley79
I’m so sorry for your loss, Ashley, we are here for you! Welcome to our little family of witches!
With love 
and magick 
always,
Marsha
Hello @ashley79,
I’m so sorry for your loss. Others have kindly shared some spell suggestions and advice, so I’m just adding in my support 
Please make yourself at home here in the forum - all of the discussions are open to you. Feel free to jump into any that call to you.
Wishing you all the best. Blessed be 
Welcome to the family of wizards and witches!
I am Airam from beautiful Greece
I wish you good magical travels!
Welcome!
Hi @ashley79 and welcome to the family.
I’m so very sorry for your loss, the lovely members have provided some great things to try, and I agree with Mystique, I think you should consider seeing a grief counsellor.
Grief is like every other emotion - it has a purpose, a painful purpose. I cannot imagine the pain you are feeling right now, but I’m not sure that magickal assistance alone is the best way to deal with it. It comes from somewhere deep inside, and maybe it’s best not to navigate it alone. I hope you have support to help you through this difficult time.
x Blessed Be x