Welcome to the forum @nicole19 
My name is Megan and I’m one of the moderators here on Spells8 
it’s nice to meet you!
I’m sorry to hear you’re going through a troubling time 
you’ve got support in the community here with us, if you’d like! There’s so much to learn here on Spells8, so much to experience and share with others. I’m sure you’ll find something that interests you. Have you checked out the courses or meditations? Those are a good place to start!
You can also pop in and ask #questions or share bits of #witchy-wisdom with us if you’d like. I look forward to seeing you around more!
Also, if you’d like to change your username to Nikki (or another variation, or something else entirely!) you can do that by following this tutorial here!