I’m feeling a bit discombobulated today. I got back from the garden club “Spring Fling” yesterday afternoon and I’m still feeling completely drained. While I love the ladies (even though we are opposites as far a religious and political views go, for the most part), and we had a great time, visited some great gardens and ate some great food, having all that energy around me was just too much and I’ve been trying to decompress.
There is stuff I should be doing (get out in the garden and pull weeds before it heats up too much, get on the exercise bike etc.) but I just don’t have the get up and go to get up and do any of it.
I did a little ritual this morning, to return to my center and gather my scattered energy, and that helped for a while. It may be time to do it again, and call on the companionship of one of my faithful crystals. Or maybe just take a nap.
You could do what I call a “Brain Dump” to clear your mind of busy thoughts, worries, tasks, To Do Lists etc. Grab a notebook and write everything down that is weighing on your mind as it should help them from keep circling around and around. “Me Time is calling you” embrace it as it sounds like you are exhausted.
Wishing you blessings and rest at this time of need
That happens to me. The last time it took me a few days to feel right. Maybe take a nap with your crystals? Amethyst and Selenite, especially. That might help.
Do you ever try burning white sage incense when you’re feeling this way? I find (for me) that it helps me release the tension from being with people who aren’t in my current energy.
I’m not saying they are bad energy: just not your energy at the moment… it can be draining. Just a thought.
Sorry to hear it, discombobulated isn’t a fun feeling!
I used to be better at “putting on the mask” when spending time with people who have very different or even contradictory beliefs to my own. But the more I embraced my spiritual beliefs, the harder it has become for me to not stand my ground and support what I believe in. Now, trying to “play nice” with certain family members - even by just ignoring what they say - is downright exhausting. So I just wanted to say that, if that’s part of the cause, you’re not alone!
Sending big hugs. I hope you got some rest and that you’re feeling better today
I’ve been wondering how the trip went for you. It sounded like it was going to be action-packed!
You have a lot of self-awareness. It seemed like you had at least a little concern that the trip was going to be high energy but, since you didn’t have to drive, that might offset some of it.
There was likely a whole lot of chatter , and excitement from the ladies. You’re used to your quiet, introspective environment, so it must have felt like you’d been dropped in the middle of a 90s rave. None of it’s bad, per se, maybe just outside your comfort zone.
That’s another part of it - and I’m very sympathetic to this. It’s tough to form a real friendship with folks who are certainly nice and pleasant, and you have some shared interests through gardening, but they are likely not the people you would show your crystals to or discuss Tarot decks. Or heaven forbid, share your beautiful pentacle artwork.
Recognizing that funny sensation that you’re among them - but not one of them - can sure lead to feeling a bit discombobulated! It’s a lot to unpack, as they say.
Like @BryWisteria, it’s uncomfortable - and exhausting - to put on a mask and, even in a small way, go along to get along. Big hugs for that!
Glad you had fun with them for the experiences, good food and shared gardening discussions. Sorry for the noise and “otherness” that was jangling your nerves. Wonder if the others have been feeling energized from the trip.
Hopefully with each passing day you regain your serenity and intention. You got shook!
that’s exactly the feeling I get when I’m with them. It’s fine at our meetings, as they are all about gardening, with a presentation on a topic etc, plus I have a job to do in the form of taking the minutes. But in a social setting, most of them are quite vocal about their religious affiliations (which being a Brit, has always seemed very strange to me, as Brits consider that to be very private).
I suppose the only saving grace is that no one has asked me which church I go to, although my friend Barbara, who invited me to garden club in the first place, does know that I am not a churchgoer.
Well, it could be that she is gracious enough to let it drop at that. I hope so, because the garden club sounds like fun, and I well know that gardening is very hard in a hot Southern state like Texas.
Having lived in the deep South (Georgia and Texas) for decades, I have been asked many times where I go to church - from neighbors, from co-workers, you name it. I always found it very disconcerting. We’re taught to mind our own business (yes, even in the States!) but also to not be rude to people. So who is being rude? The question asker, or me if I said None of your business? (Which I never did, I babbled things like, Oh, no place you’ve ever heard of, and walked away or changed the subject.)
Hopefully nothing like that will happen at your garden club meetings - you all seem too busy with the topic at hand. It should stay that way, and just be for fun!
If I’m asked, I say I’m spiritual and leave it at that or I’ll let the person know I do not talk about religion or politics because both are controversial topics and I prefer not to debate. Most of my friends have an inkling because I do not hide my love of crystals, tarot cards, candles, or nature. Take me or leave me is my motto!
