As some of you may know, I’m new at witchcraft and before I started researching on witch craft and paganism. I’m a born again Christian. I haven’t been going to church as much as I did before. As my questions and doubts about Chistianity grew, so did my interest with Paganism and witchcraft. I never really had any doubts about God. I always knew in my heart he’s real. But it was the things that were written in the bible that I was in doubt about. (since they were just written by humans too) I always asked myself, how can we be so sure that this is really what God wants or if it is really God’s word. That’s
just my own thoughts.
Now I’m really really interested with witchcraft and have been using all my free time into researching. I’ve always strayed away from any topic that has to do with Black magic or the Devil as it creeps the living sht out of me. So it didnt really bother me much even though I was a Christian studying witchcraft as my morals would have me believe I wasnt doing hexes or anything bad. One time, I came across a grimoire which had a topic about summoning lucifer to make deals with him. I just made a quick skim through it but it required sacrifice which I also find creepy and didn’t mind it much. But sometimes I would imagine, what if I made a deal with the devil and asked for knowledge and magick, (like the ones in the television that included flying and teleportation and such) what would he ask for in return. Again, I know magicks are more subtle than that but its just me imagining ad guessing like how we mightve wondered once in our lifetime, what if we could bring dinosaurs back and such.
I know some of you or most of you do not believe in the Devil. But I think he might’ve sensed my enthusiasm and interest in witchcraft. I woke up to the most realistic dream I can ever remember. I was with 3 woman. I cant remember much how everything went down but they were witches. One of them appeared to be a nun. I was asking them how I can have powers. They were discussing some methods to me and all of a sudden their eyes turned all black. And their skins have turned white. They were chanting something and I barely remember what it was but one line struck in my head. “Say the Lord’s name in vain when he is Slain” (at 3am or pm?) And they were trying to make me chant with them. As they were chanting I can feel my lower rib crushing in my dreams. Mostly, in our dreams we didnt have much choices and everything’s in slowmotion. But I remember thinking about everything. I tried to pray. It crushed them but my words got all gibberish and they started chanting again. My curiosity got the best of me. I thought of how it would feel to have visible unrealistic magic. And I chanted with them. Im not sure if I finished the whole thing but I can remember how I had a hard time breathing as I went further with the chant.
Don’t get me wrong what I told you about me imagining about making deals with the devil was only about me wondering what price he asks for. And it was just once that I’ve wondered. I dont give it much thought. Watching CAOS made me believe maybe Lucifer aint that bad and maybe he’s reasonable? So I never thought I’d ever have a dream where he will have me making a mockery of God’s name. Any thoughts? Some of you may or may not believe God or the devil but it felt real to me. Should I be worried? Should I be making some protection spell? Can any of you interpret dreams?
P. S. My parents are aware of my interest in witchcraft and that I have been studying. (With great power comes great responsibility, spidey said and I know all these come with risks so whatever happens I thought they should know what I’ve been up to) They didnt stop me from doing it but I’ve made them aware of the dream that I’ve had and they said maybe I should stop or think twice. They said they wouldn’t wanna be seeing me floating like Emily Rose. (some story about Exorcism)