@BryWisteria thank you so much for sharing this link: A Conscious Rethink: How to Write a Forgiveness Letter for Self-Healing there was a lot in there that I really needed to read:
“When people do us harm, we end up being attached to that mistreatment like a sort of chain”.
“By forgiving the jerk, we step free from the victim mindset and wield a set of spiritual bolt-cutters, thus choosing to sever that chain that still binds us to them.”
“We empower ourselves, and take action to free ourselves from them forever.”
“The person who hurt you will no longer live rent-free in your mind, body, or soul.” - This one. This one especially.
Like a constant dripping tap in the back of my head. Mitch, Mitch, Mitch.
I don’t think that it would come as a great surprise to anyone as to whom my challenge entry will be about. I don’t think this could have had any better timing. I literally prayed to the universe going to bed last night for a sign of what I need to do. I do believe that I have my answer.
With the holidays coming up, this will be the first time that I’m not focusing on basically on him and what he wanted in 15 years and I do admit…I have hit a speed bump and I really have been really struggling and sinking backwards into some pretty dark and scary places. I was getting frustrated with myself “come on Jess, it’s now week 10 without him. You should be getting better. Not getting worse.”
I know it’s all part and parcel of the healing journey but these past few days hit me like a runaway freight train.
But just simply reading that link I realise that not only forgiving him for what he has chosen to do over the last 15 years but also forgiving myself for the past 15 years will be a huge step in my healing journey.
So thank you to you @BryWisteria I really did need this.