I decided to concentrate my bowl that I made and call out to the elements North, East, South and West to protect me! I call to the North to Nourish me! East is Air allows me to have a clear sound mind. South Fire 
to kindle creation in my mind and soul! Most of all I call to the element of Water 
to nurish and heal me!
First I used all ss to to concentrate my bowl 
and cleanse it of any negative energy!
I opened my circle and I am protected! I protect everyone around me!
I decided to use a prayer 
bowl to elaborate a prayer that has been weighing on my heart 
!
I pray for strength for my voice I pray my anger would leave in the bitterness could be gone and banished. I pray for confidence throughout the day. I pray my trauma will not be my story. And I pray for my truth. I pray shame would fall and I would be shameless. I pray that I will not be shamed and I pray for wisdom and courage and compassion and peace and love! I pray for forgiveness and I pray for peace and healing! I pray for it compassion towards my children! I am growing tired!
I have a son who attempted suicide and now it has been really hard to find balance. My other son is back on fentenol! My reality is very blank!
So I call out to Enodia The Queen of all Witches to grant me peace 
She is the Guardian of Children and she is in my liminal space 
! I call to Persephone Queen of Hell! I call to Demeter her mother! I call to Circe to help me with my sorcery and my pharmakaia! I call to Atimis and Diana! I call to Cernnonos! I them her in my sacred space and invite them to my sacred altar!
I made a dish for her and also put some more offerings in the bowl! Lemon 
, mint, thyme, basil!
Also
My offering is my pain that resides in my soul!
This hym
Enodia
She is the gateway and she opens the door and hands me my key 
to the next steps 
Persephone crowns me while I work on my shadow aspects! I call to Demeter and ask you
To help me and aid me while I hand out in nature!
I believe I can be happy
I believe I can ride on a chariot and fly in the sky!
I believe this pain can be turned into honey!
I believe In the God and Goddesses
I have faith there will be some light
I turn the bowl three times counter-clockwise to Get rid of all the na negative energies and then three times I bring forth all of the wholeness!
I am a queen 
who deserves my heart to be healed!
Jeannie
So more it be!
