Many of our expectations were designed (and blown out of proportion) by Hollywood. Just because you can’t lift a car with your mind, it doesn’t mean that you don’t have any psychic abilities!
I think your curiosity about these topics is a great sign, it means you’re ready to try something less flashy and more real. I’ve cast spells in my mind without knowing it for years. And they worked best when I “calibrated” down my expectations to my actual level of skill.
It’s important to distinguish between a power to manifest change and a power to “see” beyond. They are not the same skill, but they may develop together as you tune your intuition. It will take time, and like anything else there are people who have a natural gift or talent for it, and some who have to work hard to master the skill.
Keep exploring different topics that interest you. In your position, I would start practicing energy work and developing my intuition as much as possible.