Tonight, I found the paper I wrote at the seance presentation, all folded up, the program at the library I attended earlier this month
Everyone in the audience (maybe 40 or so people) was given a piece of paper with instructions to write a number or symbol we liked at the top.
Those who wanted it were given a dab of a oil mixture. He said it was a road opener oil. He put a dot on the paper. It smelled nice.
Then we were told to clear our mind and as much as possible, focus on loved one(s) who had passed, and write down the thoughts that came into our mind, as much as we could, for seven minutes, without judging or editing what we wrote down.
I thought of a grandmother I never met, because she died when my mom was 20.
The facilitator said we could write down this message at the top to get the ball rolling,: Who is waitng for me and What do I need to know or words to that effect, if we desired.
Of course, this was a lot more helpful than my first attempt a couple of weeks before the seance, which was trance-like scribbling and trying to detect words in the scribbles (but I did find some).
So this is what I wrote.
“Be with me. I hear. Can you find a way to make it stop? Pressure. There are two. Keep at it. Find a way. Mercy. Bring it to an end. There are depths. Figure it out. Who is behind this and why? Forget. Mercy. Slipping. My focus. Can you be a beacon? There is a path. Stripped of reason. Keep at it. My darling. You are almost there. Figure it out. Find a way. I love you. Be still. I am here.”
So, of course, very freaked out when I read all of it. When I “received” I love you, I got emotional and teared up.
Of course, it could be my own subconscious or something…but many of those phrases are not words I would use, such as “stripped of reason” and “can you be a beacon?” Also it never occurred to me to be a beacon for anyone or anything. Or, maybe that’s not true. I do try to be a role model for my son and children i teach. But I am not sure if that is what was meant.
So…it is very mysterious! I will meditate on these messages, and particularly the phrases that repeated, this Samhain and perhaps try it again some time.