CAUTION! Shadow work ahead
I looked into my shadows & was destroyed.
I now need something to make my spirit buoy.
I looked into the past & it wasn’t pretty
Spoiled and mean & totally petty.
Resented my mother who did her best.
Still she totally failed but now she’s at rest.
Her role was protector she didn’t do well.
And because of that fact, I lived in hell.
She was so needy, I felt emotionally drained
I’m guilty, I was awful with no one to blame.
I really thought I was all that!
What I was, was a total brat.
I have long since forgiven my Mother
She was the best, I wish I could hug her.
The belief was, that I’d forgiven myself
But I hid it away, I it put on a shelf.
I’m sorry I pushed her out of my life
And I moved to Florida to be his wife.
He’s a good man & she, a good mother
They played tug with me, I felt I would smother.
I need to regroup & make a new plan
After 47 years, I’ll stay with that man.
He’s the love of my life,
one thing I don’t regret.
I love you Babe.