Let’s see… the first cord cutting was when I noticed they were refusing to follow their dreams and didn’t know what they were promising to teach. That was a deal-breaker for me. Did four or five before the renovations kicked us all out. Meanwhile I got busy with my own life. Their reaction was to try to catch my attention when I was busy. I wouldn’t even look at them. They wouldn’t take a hint. There were events in the lobby, where I stayed with my group, not looking at them, and they’d force their presence and Cast in public! Then all events were cancelled.
It wasn’t long after that men would come to my door, trying to get me to whore around. Thankfully, they didn’t try to force me. Someone who knows me said there were rumors spreading against my reputation, but I should ignore it because those who really know me aren’t falling for it. Every time that happened, I did cord cuttings and protection spells.
At one point, a friend offered me the Crafting of a friend of hers… just before she had found a place to move. She returned to tell me he’d said I had to get away from the cause because he could do nothing. I’d already cut ties several times.
Did something like 65 cord cutting spells over the two years I was away from this complex. Ran out of energy, but I was finally allowed to move back into this complex a year and 7 weeks ago. Instantly, I was told by the new maintenance man that I have a positive reputation among people who know me and found out I was returning.
When I got sick from the stress of the loss of access to supplies (all the local stores left this neighborhood in a matter of three months just before I got online), I couldn’t do anything- which was most of this summer. Since then, I got sick and tired of being sick and tired. No more namby pamby. I’ve been blasting away at full power at least three times a week since, and I’m finally noticing a bit of relief.
Part of me whispers I should move away. I have nowhere to go, and I wouldn’t leave this mess behind even if I could. If this entity can follow me through two moves, it will follow anywhere I go. I want to clear it here, where I feel most at home, most powerful and supported.
Some consider me weakened because I am alone, here- no family or childhood friends. Let them think that: it only shows their true personalities. They don’t realize I was never supported before I came to New Mexico. This is my energetic home. They have no power over me.