I’m finally starting to notice some patterns, so I thought I’d share what I’m learning in case it helps or perhaps even inspires someone else, too. Or if you all can help me figure out what’s next!
Yesterday (Saturday), I was sitting at the dining table having an early lunch. My partner finished before me and went to their computer.
I had a moment there… Not sure, exactly. But I sighed, put my fork down, and stood up, thinking, “Time to go.” And then, 10 seconds later, the alarms for evacuating started. I was already heading towards the cat carriers when they started, so I pulled them out, and we collected the cats. We were out the door so quickly that I even had time to go back for my rings and phone (which were on my desk at the time).
Later in the day, I thought to myself that I still had one delivery on the way. I went downstairs and looked around the lobby. Nothing? Okay, that’s fine. Then I noticed someone coming towards the door with a parcel but they won’t be able to open the door without buzzing someone’s apartment. I let them in so they could leave it on the floor. I have a look at the parcel as they’re leaving and it’s addressed to me. I say out loud, “Oh, that was mine.” And they turn around and smile for a moment, before walking away.
A few hours later, it’s only about 16:00, but I’m too tired to stay up. I’m confused about this because I got a pretty regular sleep and didn’t wake up too early. My energy has generally been really good recently, so it bothers me a little that I want to sleep again. But I do. I have a nap.
It was not until I woke up from my nap that I realised I was probably worn out from whatever you call this going on. I mean, I’m possibly spending energy on knowing when to move before I need to know. I’m not consciously doing this, but somehow, this information is coming to me.
Of course, there’s a part of my mind saying, “These are but mere coincidences.”
That being said, I’m used to much more simple instances of “knowing.” For example, knowing who’s calling, where the cats are, that kind of simple stuff. It’s usually nothing that leads to action or change in action.
Well… I take that back. Knowing where the cats are has been really helpful when we’ve had to evacuate.
So, this is new to me consciously. It’s possible that I’m only noticing this now. Because there have been, in hindsight, quite a few days where I suddenly become inexplicably tired like I did yesterday.
I’m not sure what to do with this, or how to better manage my energy as a result. I have my go-to ritual (A Power & Energy Retrieval Ritual) for recovery, which is fine. I also have a protection meditation for mornings that I’m getting back into after neglecting it for a while. Then there are the baths I frequently take… But other than that…
Any advice? Similar experiences?