Hi friends! This post turned out to be a little longer than I anticipated, but I am a newbie and was so excited to share! I had been waiting with great anticipation for Friday’s Pink Moon and had done a lot of prep ahead of time like hunting down a piece of rose quartz I knew I had somewhere and picking wild pink azaleas for the occasion, rolling my own pink beeswax candle, and thinking hard about what intention I’d like to set.
I fell asleep Friday night, it had been a hard week with sick personal kids, hard classes (I teach 6 year olds) and I hadn’t slept well all week. I woke up Saturday morning at 6 and it was pouring rain and thundering, but my house was dark and quiet so I decided to do my meditation since I knew that if it wasn’t raining, I would still be able to see the beautiful moon.
I’m super new to the craft and right now I am really focusing on meditation and setting intentions and feeling comfortable with the idea of altars and sacred spaces that aren’t a church. I set up my pink candle, my rose quartz, and some lovely wild azaleas I had picked from the yard the day before and did the pink moon meditation. I was not fully prepared for the experience, but it was pretty amazing!
My cats, curiously, would not stop hopping up by my candle, I just noticed that and tucked it away to think on later. After the guided meditation, I didn’t feel ready to stop, so I just continued gazing at my candle and breathing. I had all the lights off, the rain was loud on the roof, it was so peacefuland I felt so full of love and contentment. Then, I saw these beautiful rays of light coming towards me from my candle flame. I thought it was just because I was a little bleary eyed from being up early, but they stayed every time I wiped my eyes or blinked. It was comforting because I decided that my witchy name was going to be Ailey and I had looked it up the night before and discovered that it meant light. I’d also be looking at pictures of sigils that represented light and the lights I saw with my flame matched one I had seen the night before.
Then, out of nowhere, a moth flew into my candle flame. That startled me because it made the flame sputter and I was afraid a flaming moth was about to go flying onto the carpet. Then, I got a little worried that moths flying into your flame might not be the best message, but I made myself calm down and breathe and immediately started thinking that I needed to remember not to burn myself out with the intention I had set or with my new studies, etc. I tend to hyper focus on topics when I am excited and interested in them! After that, I knew that my meditation was finished.
I looked up the significance of moths after my meditation, I was amazed because they represent (in many cultures) spiritual growth and awakening (which I am really focused on right now), change and transformation, and even exploring the repressed shadow aspects of ourselves. I was raised very strictly Catholic, so I’ve been exploring the idea of being a Christian witch and I am working through some feelings on that so the idea of a “exploring a repressed shadow self” felt pretty significant to me.
All in all, it was amazingly profound and also a little shocking. This is the second intentional witchy thing I’ve done and I was not expecting anything to actually happen since I am so new to it all. I was pretty excited just to have a space set and a time to actively meditate! I am proud of myself and very excited to continue my studies!
If you made it this far, thanks for reading and bearing with us neophytes who are excited to be finding our way!
Good for you for jumping in and giving it a try- it sounds like you had a little visitor (as well as some curious kitties!) but that’s okay- meditations and magick don’t always go as expected. And honestly, that makes it fun and exciting! 
I did have to enlist the help of a psychiatrist & therapist 
in addition to my other forms of support. Having a good support system though is also a major help in itself. I’m happy to add you to it though. It means a lot.
of sorts that is all different coping mechanisms that work the best for me.
but I’m glad you were able to get yourself calmed down enough to think with a level head. That’s an important skill to have as a witch!