“And God said to Solomon, Because this was in thine heart, and thou hast not asked riches, wealth, or honour, nor the life of thine enemies, neither yet hast asked long life; but hast asked wisdom and knowledge for thyself, that thou mayest judge my people, over whom I have made thee king:”
King James Version (KJV)
I believe that if I were in Solomon’s position, I would asked for the same, wisdom.
Is what I have been searching on my path, the knowledge of the experiences I had when I was a kid. Of what I saw unknowing the Spiritual realm. That was the spark in my life to pursue the unseen, only stoping for a while, because I was told that is bad, it was forbidden, even a sin.
To make what I feel to share short. Is all about the wisdom, to be productive to others and to myself, and to keep on building and answering the puzzle.
A conversation I had connecting with Lucifuge Rofocale, I asked him the stupidest question; besides of other things, was if I was going to lose my soul. Without hesitation he said yes, and yes that itself made me put a red flag on it. But also made me put in perspective, on if it was the right route to take. So I just stood there.
Recently I had found a book; yes… Another book 
; from the Hermetic Order of The Golden Dawn, about self initiation to this tradition. I mean… I knew of GD for long, and now it came to me the existence of this book dedicated; similar to Cunningham’s Wicca, a guide for the solitary practitioner book, but for those interested in TGD tradition. I mean really??
This do resonates to me, on making that shift to light.
In my workings, I have the lovely experience on making rituals with the presence of Goddess Bastet, I also incorporated what it’s known as ceremonial magick or ritual on some of my workings, and wanted to learn Kabbalah. I feel that I’m ready to get my feet wet with this practice, in which is a mayor turn of my actual tradition.
Even my guides let me understand that indeed, is the time to open the door on that part of my practice. As North Americans use to say, to make the plunge.
I know that it won’t be easy, there’s certain steps a have to make as a solitary practitioner, in which I have to be honest to myself, and of the discipline applied to become a Neophyte 0°=0□, but worthy.
Whatever keeps you growing! If you have a special connection with the GD, you should do your best and see how it resonates with you.