Last night I teared up for the first time while doing spell work and praying to my Goddess. That has never happened to me with Wicca. Since embracing Wicca, I have kept my beliefs more down to earth. My move from conservative Christianity, with all of it’s idiosyncrasies, to liberal Christianity, that denies a lot of the spiritual and the miracles, led me to a more grounded faith. It was easy to finally embrace Wicca after 25 years of playing at the edges.
I didn’t originally worship The Lord or The Lady. I saw them as representatives of The Divine. As I have grown over the last six months, I have totally dropped The Lord from my practice and I actually worship The Lady. I still see her as a representative of an indescribable Divine Being, but she is my deity that I work with and she’s as every bit real to me as a triune God was to me as a conservative Christian. How did I get here? I don’t know, but I don’t believe this is a bad thing.
I mentioned the failed open marriage in the original post but it’s no longer failed. I mentioned how Moon, my friend, had to save me a year ago. Little did I know I would need saved again. This time for real because we found the underlying causes being triggered by outward pressures. This has led to a renewal of life that I never knew I needed.
There have been “miracles” this year that I cannot explain. I mentioned that above, but more happened since I started this thread. I need to share those someday either on here or in a video or somewhere. The cliff notes version of course.
This year has been mostly positive for me. Not everyone can say the same thing. I feel blessed and I only want to share the blessing with others with this new life I have been given. The reason for this update is, while I lived my life this year and survived and overcame personal demons, I also explored Wicca in new ways and embraced a deity to the point that I am praying to her, honoring her on the altar, and thanking her for the year. (All of this happened during the the season traditionally given to her - Summer Solstice to Winter Solstice.) This truly is a condensed story of praise to my Goddess.