Hi, just wanted to ask for advice Anybody ever encounter the dead trying to contact you in your dreams? How do you know it’s them and not for example something else trying to impersonate them?
I have a grandma who passed away about 1,5 year ago. She keeps popping in to my meditations non stop. I ensured her she is loved, she is thought of, but I want her to move on. She doesn’t want to, though. She constantly keeps “peeking” when I meditate and I constantly tell her to move on. Today, however, I had a very sad dream. She was sent somewhere away and she was not happy there. It was a very far away place and it was totally empty - the streets were empty, it was sooo silent. Not even dogs barking, no street noise. The hut, where they put her, looked like made from clay - not the standard of life I would dream for anybody. When I entered the hut, she was sitting there all alone. She did not speak, nor look at me. She suffered from alzheimers and she was in her own world, just like during her last year of life. The room was awful - dirty, moldy and lacked basic appliances. I quickly noticed the room has a lot of other doors. When I wanted to discover them, i ended up in a disproportional, huge maze of clean, modern and very nicely kept rooms out of which almost every one looked the same. I somehow knew though if I started tearing the floors and wallpapers down, I would discover the same dirt and mold like in the first room of the hut, where I initially found my grandma. Every room had loads of wardrobes, all of them pristine white. I remember the feeling of being so sorry for her and saying out loud “I want to stay here, with her, I will keep her company, it’s nice in here”, but an unfamiliar voice said “NO, YOU CAN’T” and i woke up in my bed.
Maybe it’s stupid and I am over interpreting, but I had a certain idea. Since my grandma had alzheimers and it’s a disease of a brain, I thought I was inside of her head. The hut was not nice and moldy, because her brain was ill. It might have been a representation. Her head was a maze for herself and she didn’t recognise anybody else, nor knew anything anymore. I am pretty sure it was not purgatory or something like that, as it should be full and not as beautiful as the sights I saw there, from the hut’s window. This is all sooo sad and confusing for me, BUT. Coming back to my question. How can I help my nana move on? She doesn’t listen I am also afraid that it might be something else preying on me, therefore, I do not want to interact and want to be careful. How do I cut the connection? Do you know of any rituals to help her move on? What if she doesn’t want to? Gosh, million questions.
TIA for any comments and loads of love for all of you