I’m sorry that you’ve experienced so much trauma
In regards to this subject matter, consider me your doppelganger.
I think it’s been coming at me so strong lately because I have been helping my Oma declutter her home and we have come upon an old suitcase of mine and a bag of old mail from 1995-2000’s. Love letters from my Dad to my Mom, one from my Mom to him that got sent back due to wrong address, and so much more.
I understand how you could possibly be feeling, since you’ve reached out and asked for help healing the inner child and the trauma. It’s heavy, not quite like a tightness in the chest but almost like a body weight. It’s a mournful, longering, yearning kind of feeling. And it is the conductor of our music until we have been taught how to heal.
I feel for you very much @kira-marie, I’ll be watching this topic and hope that you can find healing!