@atypical_witch My first sabbat was Beltane and I did a lot of reading on it and dreamed of what I’d have liked to have done but due to my living arrangements at that time wasn’t really able to fully acknowledge it. Honestly I don’t think I even had an altar yet just a box with my crystals and a bag full of herbs and just a few different color candles. Mostly at the time I used the desk or dresser in our hotel room or a box turned upside down at a friend’s house to work on in the middle of the night I think I even set up shop in the hotel bathtub one night because my husband was insistent on arguing with me as I tried to work and kept breaking my circle so I locked myself in the bathroom and sat in our tub 
I did however do some huge revamping and celebrating for litha because it was also my birthday and I finally had a decent enough altar space that I was proud of and wanted to show off. Changing your altar to fit the sabbats and esbats isn’t really a big deal in my opinion especially for people like us who are fighting battles with demons we can’t see. So long as you light an appropriate candle or say a prayer just to let the deities know you appreciate it and acknowledge it. I had plans to make my corn dolly for a week before I worked on her and didn’t get started until midnight on lammas. And My altar -Which is tiny in comparison to the one I had at litha due to living out of a travel altar- didn’t get put together until the day after lammas and because of my home situation had to be taken down within the hour. It doesn’t make us any less of a witch or any less dedicated just because sometimes we have to tend to our health first. After all our intentions will never flourish if we run on empty batteries. So what I was a day late? At least I made the effort and Lugh knew where my heart was my head just wasn’t in the same place at the same time. No worries love. Mabon is approaching and you get another go at it. and this time if you feel like you’re struggling you can always talk to me and I’ll listen (lemme tell ya I got tons of stuff that gets in my way as well) and if I hadn’t have been able to talk to @Amaris_Bane my dolly and altar may have been postponed for the whole year. You’re not alone anymore love. We’re all here to support you and lift you up. Blessed be 
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