Thanks so much for the warm welcome.
Thats an important question. What am i interested in? I think the most important thing to me is to energy harnessing (if that is a thing). My personal belief system consists of one higher power in a more traditional setting. I feel like many of the worship platforms consists of similar stories. A high god, followed by gods and goddesses of particular things or areas. In my case its god and his angles. So, i try to stay away from anything the includes worshiping something that is outside of my belief structure.
My mind remains an open book though. I openly take versions from sources that are not rooted in my belief system. I believe its important to have an open mind in this area even if i am firm in my beliefs. I am not a wildly religious person. Thats just my head space.
Lol, this is the first time ive ever had the opportunity to have these particular set of communications with other humans, so im going to let it all out right now.
Here’s what I can do: id say about 90% of the time i know what a persons thinking. Not like i can hear their personal dialog but more i can pick up impressions. I can tell when thier energy shifts in conversation, so i know which way the conversation or situation is heading. This has saved my life on 3 occasions that i know of, Im sure its saved me in more ways than ill ever really know.
But being hyper sensitive like that is hard to understand. Growing up it was confusing, I remember one of the doctors my mom took me too telling her that i could read micro emotions and thats how i was reading situations. My mom thought i manipulated people but really i just knew how to connect with them.
And then theres the dreams… oh the dreams. I read actual words in my dreams is that normal? Haha probably not. My dreams are intense and hard to understand. Ive spent a majority of my life trying not to dream, sleeping meds you name it. Ive tried it. I dont know how to navigate the plains or interpret what im seeing. Even though i know there is something there, i just dont understand it. One time i had an out of body experience. I was in like idk like a trance or something. But when i opened my eyes there was something hovering above my body. It was scary as shyt and definitely not something good or of this world. I always hoped it never got into me. Like i hoped when i screamed it didnt like come in. I know thats sooo weird but its true. Ps, i dont think it got it, but i spent years worrying about it.
Okay, so that what I have.
What ive been given: 3 things. A book called watch your dreams, a pendulum, and a deck of oracle cards called healing with the fairies. Ive had these items for maybe 20 years. Amazingly, they have stayed with me through all of my adventures.
There is so much information. Im like a kid in a candy store i literally want to touch everything. Im not sure where i belong tho. I cant even really identify the stuff mentioned above, as in what courses would help me develop what has been passed down to me.
Its important for me to learn what i am exacty. I need it to mentor. My son has dreams. His day care tried to tell me they were night terrors and told me to consult my pediatrician. Which of course i absolutely did, but there is nothing medically wrong with him. I deeply suspect he has a portion on what i have. I believe the other portion resides in my daughter. At least as far as i can tell at this point.
I know how hard it was growing up with a parent who thought something was mentally wrong with me. I was lonely all the time because i was either heavly medicaid or i could pick up on impressions from other kids, which let me tell you is not popular at all. I dont want that for my children, I need to be able to mentor them in a healty and safe environment where they can embrace what has been given and grow to who they are going to be. They will also need community. People who are like them and can let them know its okay to be you as you are and as you were made.
I am just so grateful that i live in a time where there are safe havens. Places where people embrace this kind of connection to the universe and offer guildance with the love and care that it deserves. We are special people who for better or for worse can hear the heart beat of the world around us. And thats something to be celebrated.
Okayy… so… soul bared right there. Its a little muddy. But, its what im working with so far. If you know of any direction i should be looking in or could help me identify what some of the things ive listed above are id be grateful. I think its most important for me to have a name for ‘what i can do’, identifying what that is will help me understand it more. Equally important for me to find material on that as well so i am able to be a supportive parent.
Thank you for reading this. Im so grateful to have just been heard, for real.