So I did my full moon ritual, a couple days after the full moon. This month’s full moon was an eclipse, and I felt the intense energy of this eclipse as a powerful force for severing the past and moving forward into a state of change. For a few days leading up to the full moon I could not sleep, the energies were just too intense, and I felt them forcing me to face darker energies.
I did a powerful ritual for my full moon ritual in which I invoked Kali. She taught me a very important lesson in my life. Most of my life I have been trying to run or hide from painful or negative energies. She showed me how since I was doing this, that over time I was blocking this negative energy up into my body, since whenever I felt anything negative I was tensing up and not wanting to just allow myself to experience that, I was just making the energies get stuck in me, resulting in lots of pain being stuck in my body. Kali told me that I need to learn to accept negative energy, feel it in a mindful way, even learn to enjoy it in some ways, that act of battle, and to transmute the energy into pure energy, since as she told me, that is exactly what it is, just energy, nothing else, good or bad are just labels we put on it, she told me. She taught me that anytime I am experiencing anger or pain, that I should listen to one of her mantras, and chant along to it, and dance! She taught me that dancing is the best way to get energies moving in the body, and that dancing will allow me to free all those negative energies I trapped into my body by tensing up and blocking them in place. She taught me that I must allow the energies to just flow through me and let them fuel me, that rage and anger, and pain all have their purposes. I spend a very long time in my ritual, dancing to her mantra while chanting it, as a way to raise so much energy. Victory to Ma Kali!