Weekly Witchy Challenge-Freedom in Forgiveness entry
Weekly Witchy Challenge-From the Shadows
I feel like these work together well what do you think? <3 thanks for listening all…
When I was sitting in my Imbolc ritual speaking with Brighid I was washed with emotion. Details left for the personal she guided me to go back into Shadow work. Wasn’t fun the first time, I’m not exactly thrilled. But I answered yes ma’am and away we go.
I have tossed Shadow work around in my head since the other night. Trying to just let her lead me to what exactly needs to be released. I came upon a Tarot Reading to help pull out what exactly is being blocked from transforming.
Oh Tarot - How honest you are.
It’s shadow work so I want to keep some of my most shadowy things to my own, but I will share with you that I am an alcoholic. I have been in sobriety for five years. I am proud of that, not so proud of the actions that brought me to that moment. In short, the tarot brought up those situations and labeled them as “heartbreak”.
At first I did not understand, but now I realize I had broken my own heart. In comes the forgiveness. I am grateful every day I did not hurt someone physically with my drinking. I know that decisions I made did weigh heavy on my family emotionally which is just as traumatic. My children were very young, my daughter old enough to remember. I will hold onto those years forever… I have to forgive me. We did those things, but without them I would not have grown into the mother wife human person I am today.
Not something I can crank out in an afternoon and feel total forgiveness. I feel like I am at the start of a journey. How do I begin to love us for making those choices?
I am attaching the awesome Tarot Shadow Worksheet I used. I believe I found the link through our forums. It is deep and time consuming, I am making this a multi-day experience. The intro describes it to be a 1-2 hour worksheet, not in my Traumatic Case
benebell-wen-workbook-independent-shadow-work-cartomancy-session-v2.pdf (1.2 MB)