For my third entry, I am going to answer the journal prompts from the Weekly Witchy CHALLENGE - Itās Time for Time Magick. I was at a loss for what to do next and, being low on spoons this evening, I figured this would be a good practice for journaling and thinking about what I want or what I know.
ā If you could live forever in your current body and mind, would you?
Ya know, Iām not sure I would. There is a lot going on with my physical body that I would rather change. I think if I was going to live forever I would prefer to live in a more physically-able or capable body. But then on the other hand, if I had this body forever, I could spend my free time honing my skills, healing my body, and getting stronger. Itās a double-edged sword, I suppose, because thereās an answer for both options!
In another line of thinking, it would also give me time to come to terms with some limiting beliefs I have about my physical body. I have some very questionable self-esteem and beliefs about myself - yes, Iām going to therapy - that I would be able to work on if I had this body forever. I guess it also brings up the question of would I even want to live forever? I think I would only want to live forever under very specific circumstances
ā What would you do if you could stop time in the physical world?
I have follow-up questions! When I stop time, does everything around me stop? Does the aging process stop? Is it just like Piperās power in Charmed where she literally stops everything around her? If I could stop time and all the processes that come with time, Iām not sure what I would doā¦ Honestly, the only answer I can come up with is spend more quality time with my loved ones. Having a child has shown me how fickle and quickly time moves when youāre not watching every single second. If I could get some of the time back that I missed? Oh man, that would be wonderful.
ā Would you do things differently if you had endless time? What if you had significantly less time left available to you?
I think my answer for both of these questions includes doing more of what I enjoy, but for different reasons. If I had endless time, I run the risk of getting bored, especially if I continue every single day like it is right now. Wake up, caffeinate, work, homeschool, dinner, repeat, etc. I would want to split that up into more things that bring me joy - not that those things donāt, but endless time doing the same things on repeat make for a boring life!
Then if I had significantly less time, I would want to do more of what I love because thereās no point in living your last days/months/etc. being miserable doing things youād rather not do. I would also be sure to spend as much time with my loved ones as I could, tell the people I care about that I love them, and live every second with gratitude.
ā How has time impacted or influenced how you practice?
This is a more difficult question to answer. Before I had a family, before I had a child, I felt like I had all the time in the world. It was okay to stay up late to get a ritual done because I could. Now that I have way more going on in my life - and this is over the span of 10+ years lol - Iāve come to realize that there are ways to sneak in a few seconds or minutes of magic or my practice in a day. Iāve also really started to enjoy the little moments, the small simple spells, and the magic that I can incorporate in my daily activities.
I always end up thinking of time as a liminal space in my life. We either have too much or not enough, never an amount thatās just right. Itās constantly moving forward, so we think, but we never know where weāre going. Each second we experience has never been experienced before, and thereās magic in that newness!