Really struggling to know where to begin with this post.
I knew I’d have to share this experience shortly after it happened last night but the thought of putting it into words without sounding crazy was incredibly daunting.
I guess the best place to start is with my cup of tea.
For yesterday’s group meditation I made a chai latte - I split open a chai tea bag so I’d have leaves to read later, added some honey, milk and a spontaneous sprinkle of cinnamon, allspice and nutmeg. I stirred clockwise with intention as usual, muttering my little charms.
I set up my meditation space - 2 blue tea lights on my altar (in holders) for the God and Goddess and for this specific meditation I chose to use my Intentions jar (as I’ve done many times before since making it). I placed a pink tea light (out of it’s case) on top of the wax and lit it so it would melt around the jar, further sealing my intentions. Falala lovely meditation took place whilst drinking tea, all normal.
I’m coming to the end of my cup, glance in and see the word ‘splat!’ written in tea leaves… which made me laugh out loud. I looked more closely and can see it says ‘noom splat!’ followed by 3 different smiley face doodles. Confused and laughing I took a picture and added it to my meditation post.
Eventually I finished the last bit of tea and took the cup to the bathroom sink so I could drain the leaves without making a mess. I swirled the cup 3 times, asked for messages and signs and flipped the cup to drain the dregs. Splat - some of the leaves fell out and left a perfect paint splat shape in the sink. I just smiled to myself, rolled my eyes and said ‘Yes, that’s a splat, well done.’ rinsed out the sink and went back to my altar to do some leaf reading.
I found myself having a conversation with the leaves. It was very odd. Rather than just picking out symbols and shapes (as usual) a conversation seemed to be flowing… it’s hard to explain, but it felt like I was having a chat with a young child who was writing me messages and drawing pictures and doodles in the cup… and I just needed to keep rotating it to keep the conversation going.
At one point I saw two arrows pointing in opposite directions in the centre and without thinking I just shook the cup from side to side and continued rotating and talking about my intentions, getting signs relating to them popping up.
Suddenly the words OOPS appeared. So I said ‘Oops? What’s oops?’ and got nothing after that.
So I glance over at my intentions jar candle which is a couple of feet away and suddenly the flame is getting kinda big but rather than put it out I just seemed to be in some kind of meditative trance or something.
I quickly ‘realised’ that when I inhaled the flame got bigger and when I exhaled it seemed to get smaller so I decided I’d try to calm it down with my breath?!?!?!?!?! and it was working?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?
Then completely out of nowhere it just went BANG , made a huge spark and the whole room went dark - both the other tealights I’d had on my altar had gone out in that moment too.
Obviously I jumped and said out loud ‘Is that what you meant by oops?!’
My cat Yvie who was sitting on the other end of the bed watching me jumped out of her skin so I quickly opened the door to let her out and turned the light on.
Fortunately The Mother was downstairs watching TV so didn’t hear anything.
I went back over to the altar to investigate - The top of the intentions jar had cracked open and the beautiful scent of all the ingredients just came pouring out of the hole. I quickly grabbed a dustpan and brush from the cupboard and made sure there weren’t any pieces of glass anywhere - there weren’t. Just the one big piece from top which had landed on the dish next to the jar and embedded itself in the wax.
I’m feeling kind of weird… because it felt like the charged intentions had just been released into the universe? Which is a good thing…? But my beautiful jar has a hole in it now
Anyway, I figured I’d just calmly put everything away for the evening and go to bed as that seemed to be the end of that.
Oh and that’s when I got all caught up in Haley’s amazing art