**TRIGGER WARNING ABOUT SHADOW WORK WITH MY MOTHER **
With my kids when I tucked them in at night, I would lean in and flutter my eyelashes on their cheeks and it was ābutterfly kissesā because we believed that butterflies are spirits here on the earth or represented them / possessed them - Butterflies have always been my spirit ābugā and itās interesting how itās evolved over time. I think you and I @MeganB have similar thoughts on what meanings Butterflies hold.
My mother recently passed away and I have had quite the turmoil in my life for many reasons because of it, and Iāve pulled out my Mother Book of Shadows journal and I will say it has been VERY active! Today, as I recover from my surgery and prepare for the next year of chemo, I meditated towards the east and did a Sun Bathing ritual as the sun rose. Then came inside.
Later as I was picking my daily food harvest in my gardens, I saw the site where I was meditating and a dead butterfly laid in the spot. Now, many thoughts are that a dead butterfly is a cause to reflect on what youāre missing in a transformation or many other things similar - the internet is littered with these pages.
NERD ALERT HERE:
However, this is a specific type of butterfly called the Red-spotted Purple - the Red-spotted Purple (RSP) (Limenitis arthemis astyanax ) (artemis is the Greek goddess of the hunt and of the wild). RSPs belong to the Brush-foot family (Nymphalidae), which is a large family with over 3,000 species worldwide and 150+ in North America (I live in New England). These are found in semi-sunny situations like stream and forest edges, woodland paths, and forest openings. In those habitats, adult RSPs feed on sap, rotting fruit, animal dung, and carrion, but they rarely visit flowers.
My front yard facing east is not in a forest edge although the forest edge isnāt too far away. The RSP total life cycle from egg to death is appx 55 days - thatās under 2 months and with only 40 days from egg to Butterfly and if healthy and not killed by anything it will live from 6-14 total days as a butterfly. They are only seen from around the start of June through the middle of August - my motherās birthday is smack in the middle, July 20.
NERD ALERT OVER.
THIS IS WHERE TRIGGER POSSIBILITY BEGINS:
Therefore this Red-spotted Purple butterfly died exactly where I was Sun bathing and meditating this morning - thinking about my mother after a torrent of shadow work after her death - I realized that although both of these beings are both deceased - that the 82 years my mom was on this earth plus 9 months in her motherās womb and only 56 years of me knowing her ā and the 40 days the butterfly lived is only the part of their journey that we see. That we know. And we only know the very little of what we experience of that piece of the journey as well, not privy to everything. I realize I know my mother better now than when she was alive in that there is so much more to her than I ever understood. I donāt know if that butterfly was sent to me, was actually her telling me my shadow work is done, or her saying I have more to do. I will know once I meditate more and focus on everything, however these are the actual occurrences I would put in my Muse Journal daily and the thought provoking portions in my BoS for my Mother journey - and thought Iād share. The pics are of my dead butterfly which I will preserve and save for more shadow work with my Mom.
Iām always open to comments and your thoughts and insight, coven!