I have suffered with my mental health for many years but since COVID things have got a lot worse.
I am a very social person and I have found the isolation very hard. I draw energy from being with others and as a result of lockdown feel very very low.
2 weeks ago I unexpectedly triggered a panic attack so bad I blacked out. Since then, I’ve barely made it out of the bedroom. I’m physically sick every day, nothing stays down.
My attacks are so draining I literally fall asleep as soon as they abate, like within seconds.
I’m now starting to worry about my job - I can tell my boss is p***ed off with me. This makes it worse.
My anxiety is particularly bad first thing in the morning, before I’ve even opened my eyes I have an all consuming sense of dread. Doctor thinks as there’s no solid trigger from my attacks, that this is me anticipating a panic attack out of the blue, and as a result I give myself a panic attack.
Stressing about stress before I’m even stressed, if you like.
This is destroying my life, every time it takes longer to recover. My husband is fairly patient and understanding but I can see it’s even wearing thin on him now.
I know lots of you have similar issues I wondered what you do to get through it? Is there anything you particularly recommend?
I have tried so many things over the years but I’m willing to try anything and everything again and more if it will eventually get me to a point where I’m healthy again.
Thanks for reading xoxoxo