Hi all, I joined Spells8 in 2025 briefly and you were all so welcoming…but then I had to cancel my membership because I learned that I was going to lose my job. None of the spells I attempted saved me. I was in hell for several months, constantly terrified that I wouldn’t be able to pay my rent that month and always on the verge of getting my electric and cell phone services disconnected. I landed two awful jobs that paid very little and I was treated horribly by my bosses. Then, just when I was out of time and money, I landed a high paying 4-month contract job. Had the contract lasted the full 4 months, I would’ve been able to save enough money for several months’ rent past the end of the contract. However, although they’re very happy with me, they’re now decided to end the contract a full 6 weeks early, at the end of June, because people are returning from maternity leave earlier than expected. I’m devastated, as this doesn’t give me enough time. I still haven’t recovered mentally or financially from that wretched time between contract jobs. And now, with a brutal job market and meager savings, I find myself once again facing the possibility of losing the only thing that makes me happy: my life here in coastal central FL, with stunning foliage, wonderful animals like parrots and dolphins and abundant sunshine. I get frustrated trying to explain this to people, but the natural world here is part of who I am. It IS me. If I’m forced to move back north, I’ll lose myself. I truly will. I lost my soul dog last year, all my friends have let me down and abandoned me in my time of need and now I face the final blow that has the power to destroy me. Stage 4 cancer couldn’t do it, ending up alone without friends and my soul dog couldn’t do it, the social rejection I’ve faced for being happily single and childless couldn’t do it…but losing my life here will do it. I’ve remembered your kindness and warm welcome last year, and I’ve come back pleading with you to please keep me in your thoughts and, if it’s not too much trouble, to include me in some small way in your spell work. I know I’m being selfish; I admit it. But I’ve run out of hope. For the first time in my life, I feel hopeless. And I’ve lost faith in my own magickal abilities. Mine failed abysmally.
I’d also like to ask a question. Throughout my previous horrific period of time, and again since I got the news of my contract ending early, I’ve seen and heard owls daily/nightly - not in real life, but on TV shows, in pictures, videos, etc. There are so many possible meanings for owl sightings, I’m confused about what they could mean. Do you know if they have a meaning in magick? I’m desperately seeking any small measure of comfort to provide even the slightest relief from the tremendous mental and emotional pain I’m in.
Welcome back, albeit for an unfortunate reason, but welcome back to the pack!!
I am not well-versed in what animals mean spiritually. I know that owls represent wisdom and knowledge. Seems that some news might be coming your way. Keep all your senses tuned. Maybe it is a way to stay where you are. Maybe it is new friendship down in FL. Did you have some relationship with an owl, a person who loved owls, someone whom you consider wise? Maybe they are reaching out to you.
I’m just making guesses here.
Please feel free to ask away and check in often.
wow sounds your definitely going through some hardships I’ve only been a member for a few months so Merry Meet I don’t have any insight on the owl sightings…maybe try meditating about it if your into that. I will certainly keep you in my “prayers”
Thank you for your warmth and kindness, it means a lot to me. Although I love birds as a whole, owls aren’t among my favorites. Parrots are my number one favorite, with hummingbirds, peacocks, pelicans and all shore birds rounding out my favorites in no particular order. Don’t get me wrong, owls are lovely…but I never really thought of them at all before this. So, I’m totally baffled. I don’t understand why I keep seeing them every time I go through adversity in the last 6 months or so. I wish the sightings meant that I’d find way to stay here; I can live without friends, despite feeling lonely at times. But I can’t live without the natural world and sunshine here. I just can’t. Anyway, thank you again for your support!
We haven´t met yet, I´m Katharina, an art-witch and art therapist from Vienna, Austria!
I´m so sorry that your path is so challenging right now! From my perspective as an Austrian single mom the social/work system in the US is so terrifiying and I can´t even imagine the stress you´re going through.
@c11 just posted a link to free nervous system reset course. This could help you deal with the stress!
For supportive energy you can join the energy exchange circle!
Welcome back, @Irenebean - sending love and big hugs your way! I’m sorry things have been so tough for you lately. I’m keeping you in my thoughts and I hope that, one way or another, things align and you’re able to stay where you feel called to be.
Absolutely! I know Katharina kindly shared the coven Energy Exchange Circle, that is a great place to send and request positive and healing energy for those in need. Please feel free to add your name to the list, or, if you’re more comfortable with it, please let me know and I would be happy to add you to the Circle
Others have already shared some great advice and resources. For owls, one of the first things that comes to mind is the Goddess Athena, who is often associated and depicted with owls. She is a powerful goddess of war, strategy, knowledge, and sharing wisdom. Perhaps She could be reaching out to you, or perhaps there is something in Her lore that would be helpful for you right now.
Keeping you in my thoughts and wishing you only the best. Many blessings!
Hey there! Welcome back. I’m sorry you’ve had such a crappy time. It sounds awful. I’m sending you love and good energy.
While owls might be first thought of with Athena, for some reason, I remembered the Welsh goddess Blodeuwedd. She was made from nine different flowers, so she is a goddess of Spring. She was made to be a dutiful wife for the hero Lleu Llaw Gyffes. His mother had cursed him never to have a human wife so they made Blodeuwedd for him.
Which, when you think about it, is kind of icky. They didn’t give her any agency or ask her opinion. So when she fell in love with someone else, of course her and her lover conspired to kill off hubby.
It didn’t work, and as punishment, she was turned into an owl.
From what little I’ve found just this morning, Blodeuwedd is now considered a goddess of sovereignty and of betrayal. Maybe something in her is speaking to you, since it sounds like you’ve been betrayed by your various employers.
Just a thought. Here are a few places I found information on her. I hope this help you out!
Thank you so much for your response and all of the helpful information, Bry. Yes, if you wouldn’t mind adding my name to the energy circle, I’d really appreciate it. I feel bad asking for help when I was away for months, but this development has broken me, because I haven’t had enough time to recover and rest my soul from those excruciating months.
I’m so very grateful for everyone’s responses and I’ll respond to them all soon. Thank you SO MUCH, everyone.
Sorry to hear of your trouble. Another of our group moved to Florida and is also having trouble with the energies, there. Could it be area energies rather than something personal? If so, hang in there. I know how much you love your home and want to stay.
A lot of others have mentioned Athena. It would be great having a War Goddess on your side. She may be calling to request you be on Her side.
Sweet girl, never be afraid to ask for help right when you need it the most! That’s a big part of our Coven, as you can see. I’m glad you’re on the Energy Exchange Circle now, and you’re getting wonderful advice and input, too.
Remember that as long as there is breath, there is hope! Sending you love and virtual hugs all swirling in white light to soothe you. One day at a time, that’s all any of us have. We’re pulling for you, and we are strong, and so are you. It’s also okay to stay soft - do not let the world turn your soul hard.
Welcome home. Have added you to my prayer lovely. There’s nothing I can add but know you are seen and heard here and we can carry you emotionally if nothing else.
Hello I wanted to introduce myself as we have not met. I am Moonbeam an Eclectic Hedge Witch from Lancashire in England.
Reading your post was extremely moving you do have an enormous amount of inner strength and do not give up We are all here to support you and welcome back home.
Sending you Love & Light, healing blessings for your body, and prayers for your finances
Merry Meet
I am so so sorry to hear that this is happening/ed to you. I totally understand your feelings. Its a long story, I will give you the short version. I moved to upstate NY with my partner, left family and friends.We moved to open a business in a small town. Well, it turned out we were swiddled,lied to and just plainly CRAPPED ON. All the money we had went to open this business. We were evicted from the place we were living and had no money. We found jobs and were able to move to another place. We had to tough time of it. Now I am living in NYC and things are working out. If you ever just want to chat I am totally open to it.
In the meantime I am sending pure energy and postitve thoughts your way.
Thank you so very, very much, all. I can’t tell you what your support, encouragement and kind words mean to me. I’m blown away by how wonderful you all are. I’ll respond to everyone individually a bit later today or after work tonight.
Welcome back @Irenebean. I am so sorry for the reason you are back, but I am glad that you found us again. Maybe you were supposed to come back so you are surrounded with supporting people in the hard times in life. You already have the strength of the goddess inside you . You are strong! But it is still nice to have people in your corner. Well here we are! In the Irene corner, sending all of the love and light to you so you don’t have to move and you can find something good soon!
Thank you so much for this tremendously helpful information, Katharine! I’ll check it all out, including the anti-anxiety exercise. With regards to the owl as a sign, I had no idea that it could be a deity trying to get my attention. That’s fascinating! Btw, I’ve heard great things about the beauty of Austria.
Not at all, my friend! Apologies for the delay, but I’ve got your request added to the Circle now. May the love, light, and healing energy of the coven continue to find its way to you - I’m wishing all the best for you!
Oh gosh, it’s no problem at all, Bry! I really appreciate you adding me! I’m going to respond to a couple people’s responses to my post per day. Everyone has been so kind, I don’t want anyone to think I’m neglecting their insight and support.
I am not well-versed in what animals mean spiritually. I know that owls represent wisdom and knowledge. Seems that some news might be coming your way. Keep all your senses tuned. Maybe it is a way to stay where you are. Maybe it is new friendship down in FL. Did you have some relationship with an owl, a person who loved owls, someone whom you consider wise? Maybe they are reaching out to you.
I don’t have any insight on the owl sightings…maybe try meditating about it if your into that. I will certainly keep you in my “prayers”
Although I love birds as a whole, owls aren’t among my favorites. Parrots are my number one favorite, with hummingbirds, peacocks, pelicans and all shore birds rounding out my favorites in no particular order. Don’t get me wrong, owls are lovely…but I never really thought of them at all before this. So, I’m totally baffled. I don’t understand why I keep seeing them every time I go through adversity in the last 6 months or so. I wish the sightings meant that I’d find way to stay here; I can live without friends, despite feeling lonely at times. But I can’t live without the natural world and sunshine here. I just can’t. Anyway, thank you again for your support! 
Hello and Merry Meet! 
