@TheTravelWitch_Bry thank you. I just got flustered with everything I am learning and trying to do. Maybe I was trying to do too much in one day. I’m trying to find the right balance and I am tipping the scales at times. I have a new journal that I have been writing in, it’s like an offshoot of my BOS where I can release the feelings and questions. I did find Brigid to be a good connection for me and I have some material to read about her when I have a minute. I am a creature of habit and I like to have some kind of routine in the morning and at bedtime. I just have so much information running around my head, it feels like I should be doing something, in a hurry before it’s too late. In reality, I’m doing just fine and I should really be taking my time. Anxiety does crazy things to people.
It is easy to get caught up in an interesting new project or area of interest- and very common to bite off a bit more than you can chew in your excitement! Plus it sounds like your anxiety is being tough for you right now and you have a lot on your plate, not to mention your recent toe injury!
The new moon is tonight . Now is a great time to have some relaxation and reflection on all that you have been learning lately. Take a break from new information, and spend some time digesting what you have learned. You have already come so far, @Siofra_Strega! I am proud of you have your magickal journey. Relax, rest, and avoid burn out. Self-care and reflection are very important parts of any new learning adventure Blessed Be!
Today I have just kind of, I don’t know what. It’s been sort of what I would call a lazy day. I didn’t really get into anything, I actually took a 2 hour nap, something I haven’t done in over a year on a regular basis. Napping seems so new to me now and there was a time that everyday around 1 or 1:30pm I was out for up to an hour and a half. I read some articles about Brigid really early this morning and this afternoon I made Brigids Cross out of some beach grass and put about 6 braids in my hair with charms. That was the only time I felt okay and not scattered. So maybe I just need to do something with my hands and make something my own.
It was definitely easy to try to do all the things as I learned them and I needed a slow down. Reading has been very good for me, I try to do it before I lay down for the night and pick things that keep my brain engaged. I have gone from the Spiral Dance to Living Wicca by Scott Cunningham. Today I got a beginner’s crystals book that I was looking over. I’m trying to figure out how I feel the energy from the crystals that I have more than just being drawn to them. I have been wearing clear quartz and rose quartz a lot and I just added amethyst to my hair with a piece of rose quartz. I don’t want to wear too many at one time.
Sorry for rambling, I am definitely going to take a step back and soak in all that I have learned and done over the past few weeks.
It sounds to me like you were able to get quite a bit done! Reading, studying about Brigid and crystals, making the cross and braids in your hair, and experimenting with new stones too! I think it’s fine to take a nap when you need it, especially now close to the new moon . It’s a wonderful time for some rest and recovery! . And if you ever feel restless and scattered, doing crafts and projects is a wonderful way to regain focus and also catch that sense of success- it’s always nice to have a tangible result of your efforts and hard work
Stick with your meditation and dream magick if you can! Enjoy looking back on how far you have come in the past few weeks- you’re doing great!
@TheTravelWitch_Bry what’s kind of funny is, last night I was doing something but it felt rushed and choppy. So I sat down with my journal and started writing, when I looked back on it, I had actually done a lot and completely missed that I was probably overdoing it! So I rested after that, I put some things in my BOS and wrote a little bit. Then I had a snack and went to bed.
We were discussing this in this topic: Feeling Crystals?
I think it helps to do some sort of work with the crystal to get used to it. Hold it, meditate and breathe in its energy, even if you don’t feel anything.
Other examples: put them in places where you will see them, draw them, give them names, carry them with you, do a grounding exercise or a crystal attunement.
To me, it’s about “sharing experiences” with the crystals so that you get to know them and create a bond (kind of like a friend).
Since this post, I have done an activation meditation with my black tourmaline palm stone and I felt the energy, so before I wear or carry the stones, I will do the meditations and activations, get to really feel them and know them before I do anything with them. I have them all over my space and I wear them or carry them. I think this is a good way to become in tune with them.
I have learned so much in the past few weeks and continue to learn. I am thrilled that I found this path when I did, it’s keeping me grounded and my anxiety isn’t as bad as it was when I first began.
That’s great to hear!!
We are all in this together!
I worked with my amethyst crystals today and they are all over my sacred space and in my hair. I feel better connected to the crystals as I do the meditations and activations with them.
Tonight, I am planning on finally doing my self initiation. I can’t imagine not doing it now. I have started a wonderful journey and can’t wait to see how else my path leads me. I’m very excited about being able to do this. I was waiting until after the new moon to make sure that I had made the right choice, and I know that I have. I have the God and Goddess along with Brigid to lead the way and the best coven I could have ever asked for, so thank you to everyone for your understanding and help along the way.
Great!! this New Moon / Crescent Moon is perfect! Dedication is about shedding the old energy and starting anew - so using these growing lunar energies is a great way to do it.
Thank you so much! I knew there was more than one reason for me waiting! I will let you know how it goes later on! Thank you so much!
A reality check for me is trying to push a finger through my hand.
That’s a good one too but I personally found that it can fail (even in a dream) if you don’t put a lot of intent behind it.
For example, when I had my first lucid dream, I wanted to push an arm through the wall, something I had read online that could be done in dreams easily. I tried it but it wasn’t working. It turns out you have to really focus on it and almost see it happening. Then it worked!
I loved going through that realization because it’s a matter of attitude, of mindset, just like in waking life, you have to put some real effort into it.
That actaually makes a lot of sense! I’ll have to try something else then!
I’ve been using the app for a while now, I had to increase the reality checks because 3 per day is not nearly enough. Also it’s important to do the checks on your own, even when the app doesn’t remind you.
In a dream, you probably won’t have your phone telling you to do it so it’s about creating the habit of questioning reality (“Is this a dream?”)
The two reality checks that worked for me were counting the fingers in one hand, and also plugging my nose and trying to breathe in.
I also increased the reality checks, I use the reading the text twice and the plugging my nose checks. The last time I remembered a dream… I remembered A LOT of the dream and wrote it all down. I tried to use dream lookup, but then the dream really made no sense to me. I get the checks every 1 to 2 hours on my phone and I set a different tone for the checks.
Reading the text twice is also a good one! Just last night I had a dream where I was trying to send a text on my phone… but the words kept changing on me!!
I should have known but I still didn’t realize it was a dream!
Apparently, in dreams, text is not static because it’s being created by our mind so it’s constantly being rendered. It’s crazy!
I did change my reality checks to plugging my nose. I had a lucid dream last night. I ended up plugging my nose and breathing just fine. I was in a higher realm. It was beyond belief. I didn’t want to leave! There was a great sense of love everyone had for each other. There was peace, no negativity whatsoever. you know the feeling you have when you’re in that final state of meditation? Everybody felt that way! And, this was my happy place! I wish I could help explain it better. Lol when you think of a paradise (or a beautiful exotic country), that’s where I was!
That’s wonderful!! I’m happy to hear you didn’t just wake up after becoming lucid! That’s good.
Lucid dreaming is an amazing feeling! It can feel realer than life! And it’s a great place for healing and mental development. But I’d say it can even become addictive
I have had lucid dreams before but right as I realized I was dreaming, I would wake up. The last one I hung around for a little bit just to watch what my brain was doing while asleep. I woke up shortly after though. I remember it feeling really good and I was relaxed and it was very, pleasant, for lack of a better word right now.