Y’all I’m literally almost in tears right now. I went out into my yard to harvest the coltsfoot that grows wild in my yard as well as some buttercups and to get a few of the clover blossoms before my mom mows them down or the dogs eat them and I find this guy…
This is the very first one I’ve ever found myself. My Justin found one for me when we first started dating a couple of years ago and I have it pressed in a book some where but I found this one myself and I’ve looked every day on account of the rough year I’m having. That’s gotta be a good thing.
Also my baby sister ran me to town to run an errand this morning when she went to get her school books and I saw a bunch of magnolia trees on the campus and told her if I wasn’t at the car that I’d be harvesting a few magnolia blossoms so I could make some oils. Not a total lie but I was sure my secret was safe (today was the first time I had seen my sister in over a year so I hadn’t told her I’m a witch yet) and I gather my blossoms and her her books and then we head to run my errands. I run in and it takes me maybe 10 minutes tops. I get back in the car and she says “I don’t know if you can use these or not but I got you a couple of flowers off that vine over there. I know ‘earth witches’ use all kinds of flowers and plants and rocks in their spells”. I laughed as I corrected her terminology but thanked her none the less and asked her how she knew and she Said “I can just tell. You’ve always been special and different but now you’re so at peace with yourself. You just shine differently and I did a lot of research for the last book I wrote.” (Oh yeah my sister is a published author and you can actually buy her books on Amazon and stuff) she had picked me some morning glorys.
Y’all when I tell you I’ve never felt more blessed to have her as my sister it’s the truth. I’ve been struggling so hard with depression and self loathing lately that if it weren’t for this forum I’d have already given up on life by now and then my sister hits me out of nowhere with such kind words and a subtle hint that she still gets me and supports my beliefs right when I needed it most.
Maybe it’s the hormones but I’ve been overwhelmed by my small blessings today and all I’ve been able to do today is cry. But at least for the first time in months it’s a happy cry
@phoenix_dawn congrats on your lucky find and on your great day. I’m so glad your sister was there for you today. I hope the rest of your day is amazing
My whole front yard is blanketed in it. And I’ve looked everyday for the last 3 months hoping and thinking “if I could just find one” I’d take it is a sign that there’s still a light shining somewhere in this maze I’m navigating my way through and that it would give me the hope to keep pushing through. Granted I tried to keep the time I spent outside looking at a minimum because being a recovering drug addict and a hermit by nature all of my neighbors were probably thinking that the drugs had driven me insane finally (as I’ve mentioned it’s a very small town and I’ve lived in this same spot for 20 years give or take a couple and it’s very religious and narrow-minded around here) I had already started wearing earrings around the house again so that if ever someone got the guts to ask what I was doing j could say I lost an earring or even a contact lens if I had to. Anything to keep from having to say “my name’s phoenix and I’m a witch.” And I sure didn’t wanna say “I’m looking for a lucky clover as a sign to keep living.” But 3 months later and the premise of weed pulling by the irises I planted for my mom’s birthday on June and finally Mother Nature gave me my sign and as a bonus the Divine relit the pilot light between my sister and I. 2 miracles in one day I’d be foolish to think anything other than “the sun’ll come out tomorrow…”
I hope all of you have as blessed of a day as I have.
That is such a sweet thing you experience today it always feels extra nice when we are free to be ourselves. It also goes to show that sometimes, people just know.
@MeganB Well I learned a long time ago when I was in active addiction. I thought I hid it well because I was meticulously clean when I’d get done and I made conscious efforts not to “act high” but I wasn’t fooling anyone. everyone knew. I imagine it’s the same with being a witch. And given she had researched witchcraft for her book and the fact that I was asking Mother Nature for her blessing to pick 2 beautiful magnolia blossoms I stood out like a sore thumb I’d have told her eventually anyway because we used to share everything with each other but it was nice not to HAVE to tell her
@jim my sister must be able to read auras instead of me cause I honestly don’t feel like I’m really at peace with anything lately. But since I started practicing my craft and have laid “Megan” to rest I am more comfortable in my own skin just not in my town. We got KKK down here I’m pretty sure they wouldn’t feel very comfortable with a witch living next door
But this is huge for you! I’m proud at how much you’ve grown and I just met you like a couple months ago. You’re such a great friend and have a lot of beauty, not just on the outside!!!
Your sister can tell and so can I. You’re accepting who you are. Can I feel a group hug coming on?
That is so amazing @phoenix_dawn .I am really happy for you seems like mother na6qas really there when you needed her… May you continue to be filled with L ve.
@christina4 thank you girl! Maybe I’m just too close to the situation to see what y’all see cause I feel every bit as big of a basket case lol. Except for the part about being a good friend . I know I arrive to be a good friend cause good friends are rare these days.
Good friends are rare!! That’s why my friends are only found here! I’ve met some amazing people here and I hope that I’ll be old and grey still chatting with y’all
Finding that 4-leaf clover should’ve been the time to buy a few lottery tickets! Reminds me of one St. Patrick’s day years back I bought a few lottery tickets while wearing green pants, shirt and hat while talking in my best Irish accent. It didn’t help my luck that day, but if only I had a 4-leaf clover, lol.
I don’t play the lottery or gamble at all not that I have anything against it but I have an addictive personality and if I ever started winning I’m afraid I wouldn’t know when to walk away and lose more than I had to begin with… my husband always jokes with me saying I’d make a heck of a poker player because I could use my gift to feel energy shifts in people and be able to call a bluff with ease. But I am a terrible liar so my poker face wouldn’t help me at all gift or no gift. I’d have to focus so much on bluffing everyone else that I’d miss the shift in energies maybe you’ll find one one day.
I’ve never had good luck honestly so I didn’t really expect to actually find one during my hunts so when I did it made my day. I live in Alabama though so I tend to stick to a more tangible and easily accessible
I keep this little horseshoe charm on the burlap bag I keep the crystals I carry everywhere to help bring me luck. I’m thinking once my baby is born I’ll get a tattoo of a 4 leaf clover and a horseshoe so I’ll always have my lucky charms on me
the truth. I’ve been struggling so hard with depression and self loathing lately that if it weren’t for this forum I’d have already given up on life by now and then my sister hits me out of nowhere with such kind words and a subtle hint that she still gets me and supports my beliefs right when I needed it most.
But at least for the first time in months it’s a happy cry
it always feels extra nice when we are free to be ourselves. It also goes to show that sometimes, people just know.
I’d have told her eventually anyway because we used to share everything with each other but it was nice not to HAVE to tell her
what a wonderful day you’ve had! And it’s awesome to have someone who loves you see you at such peace 
But this is huge for you! I’m proud at how much you’ve grown and I just met you like a couple months ago. You’re such a great friend and have a lot of beauty, not just on the outside!!!
maybe you’ll find one one day.
