Ok a little background here my “mother” (I put this in quotations because she’s never actually been a mother to us and she’s a covert narcissist alcoholic and has literally drove anyone who actually cares about her out of her life.my sister moved her and her family across the country to get away from her) has completely lost her mind and while my husband was in jail I came back to live with her because I was a homemaker with no car to gain employment and couldn’t pay the rent and she agreed to help me get a job and transportation until I could get on my feet. She’s done neither. She mentally and verbally attacks me for not working but yet has made me miss 4 interviews because she was hungover and wouldn’t take me to them. I can’t even go to the store when I do make a little money from my artwork to buy anything I need now my husband is out of jail and living at his mom’s an hour away from me and we can’t live together because both of our mothers (carbon copies of each other except different addictions) despise us. He’s gotten his job back but hasn’t gotten paid and it’s going to take us a bit to come up with enough money to get our own place. In the meantime I’ve had to move the contents of my entire 2 bedroom home into one small bedroom in a single wide trailer and have absolutely no space to even move because she has gone through and either stolen or thrown away a lot of mine and my daughter’s things. I’m also in the process of installing a deadbolt to protect my things. She’s also decided to take every bit of food and dishes out of the kitchen to keep me from being able to eat (we live way out in the country and it’s an hour and a half walk to the nearest gas station with a lot of very steep hills). I’ve decided that I want no contact at all with her and my husband and I are saving every dime to get a place to live but I need suggestions on anything I can do asap to protect myself and what’s left of my home from the toxic fog this woman is bringing around with her. She drains me of positive energy the moment she enters my space and is quickly kicking me down to the point where I’m starting to become exhausted and I’m feeling hopeless and defeated and ready to just throw in the towel and give up trying. I haven’t eaten in 3 days and ive cried myself to sleep for the last week. So aside from ANY/EVERYTHING I can do to be protect myself and put distance between the toxic memory of her and myself… Those of you who live in temporary homes (with parents/inlaws, motels, roommates or rv/campers) or travel for extended periods of time what items do you carry in your travel altars and what are some tips you have and do you mind sharing pictures?I need all the help I can get in case I end up having to leave abruptly. My current altar consists of shelving and cabinets that take up a whole wall and another corner of this tiny space I’m already in due to the fact that my husband and I share an altar and I’m trying to put together a smallish travel altar for us in a metal toolbox which used to be a portable fairy garden but I can’t seem to make firm choices on what to put in it. I have a backpack for all of my grimoires and my book of shadows/journals and notebooks and of course I’ll be installing locks on the toolbox but I know the travel altar needs all the necessities but all of my items are necessary as I never know what all I may need for spell work.
What if I put something in storage and then don’t have it if I need it. I’m exhausted, have no idea how to do any of this, I’m pregnant and having to do all of this with no help at all and it’s all starting to get overwhelming. I’ve tried meditation/cleansing baths but even those methods are only helping for minutes at best. So I’m turning to you guys to see what kind of help/advice y’all may have. I’ve tried all things non magical and I’m at the end of that rope.
Also I guess I will need this dilemma added to the Energy Exchange Circle - 2021 Wiki and Distance healing box please @praecog29 @christina4 ? I know I’m asking a lot but I’m at a loss and truly worried about what the future holds for my little family