Hello and welcome @jamie6 Nice to meet you. I’m Tracy from England. Loki is my patron deity. I practice Nordic Witchcraft. Iove runes and chaos magic.
As far as birth curses, these are very rare. Explore all the wonderful paths to witchcraft and once you’ve found where you fit, you may find the curse disappears. Sometimes, with me anyway, we can get set in a negative thinking pattern and miss the small joys in life (like you being guided here to Spells8)
On the app there are tons of courses and lots of different types of witchcraft. Explore. Here’s a few master posts to get you started.
Demonolatry (Demon/Daemon) Master Post
Chakras & Color Magick 
Master Post
Oh and as far as feeling chaos, harness that energy.
How to Practice Chaos Magic
There’s lots more. Search around and ultimately magic is a journey, a roadtrip, so buckle up, hit the gas and remember to stop off and enjoy the view. You’ll end up wherever you end up. Bless 
