Wrote a really long winded entry, thank you for those who took the time to read it. Removed it so to condense it some more. (This is a little long too, but not as long as the first).
There isnāt a particular person, but many, and including those that donāt practice magick, still feel helped pave the way very much. Here goes.
First experience really pushed me out of the mundane was when I visited a psychic studio, 14 years ago about. She did a lot of stuff with me that was a first, my first closed eye visual experience was under her direction, we were meditating together. She had me meditate with her and prescribed times of the day for me to do it. First time Iāve ever meditated in such a way. She also gave me my first crystal to carry with me. Before her, I lived a very mundane life. Then she also said she is going to perform a spell on my behalf, she will have to do this in private. I was like ok, at that time this definitely went over my head.
After that, then I started to read some books on the occult, and magic. Including but not limited to, texts attributed to Hermes Trismegistus, books by Eliphas Levi, Raymond Buckland, Manly P Hall, etc. I didnāt practice, but enjoyed more of the philosophical aspect of what magick and the occult provided. One of the books I liked very much and learned a lot from and do recommend is reading the principles laid out in The Kybalion by The Three Initiates.
What I did end up practicing and reading on a lot more on was meditation, hypnosis, human potential, mesmerism, esotericism, body language, works on psychology, and psychiatry, various types of physical therapy, human potential, Theosophy, Transcendentalism, personal development, Religious texts, etc. There is so many good works on the above, canāt go too wrong finding such.
One person that influenced me greatly in the world of esotericism and meditation is Dr. Frederick āRamaā Lenz, a master mediator. He passed away many years ago, but I was very fortunate and am thankful to have been in the company and to meditate with direct students of his. Reading and listening to his works, he dumbed it down a lot where I was able to understand a put into practice, and also he made my path so much more fun.
Even with so many fantastic experiences, as Iām progressing, at the same time honestly still working against myself, very much off. So about a year and half ago I decided to align myself with the phases of the Moon (donāt recall how I decided this) not that I wanted to practice magick, but I needed structure and decided to try this out, the ebb and flow of my life and choices, there is a time to receive and a time to let go. Read a couple of books by Yasmin Boland, and various articles and books on Moon rituals. When I changed over to the Moon, I have had two fantastic dreams that Iād take telling me Iām moving in the right direction. A little time after those dreams, started to incorporate magickal works with the phases , came across a number of websites, articles, resources, and I found Spells8. An excellent source, very well laid out, organized, resourceful, spent sometime on the main page. Then I ventured into the forum, excellent community, the working behind a great excellent website, huge thank you! In the meantime, got a tarot deck Rider-Waite-Smith deck (a big thank you to those who created this deck), then a pendulum (a number of people advised to get a pendulum), crystals, incense, etc. With the tarot and pendulum Iām tapping into a very smarter aware part of myself, leaps and bounds. Wish I did this long ago, would have saved me a lot of fumbling around.
Now this āsmartā part of myself, going back so many years, when I started to meditate and studying body language, realized with my hands, walked around a lot with a clenched fist, so I consciously watched myself to not do that. One day, was strolling through a wooden local park, listening to some music, la de da, and my left hand clenches into a tight fist automatically, I looked down at my fist and talked to it out loud āhey, whatās going on down thereā and released my hand, and right after a person came scrambling out of woods from nowhere, off the path, from my left side, where my fist clenched. I paused, didnāt know what to make of it, but I realized a part of myself is more aware than myself, but I pushed that into that back of my mind, didnāt know where to go with it. But now with the tarot and pendulum, Iām solid on that Iām communicating with that part of myself.
Iām just going along with all of this, Iām liking it a lot so far.